The Corner Stone,

2008-12-15T06:10:00.001-08:00

I want a Christmas tree.

Faded pictures on the wall,
Its like they're talking to me.

2008-11-19T05:26:00.000-08:00

Why has the weather been unpredictable
Why is the sky blue
Why is love eating me up
Why haven't I been feeling happy
Why is there even school
Why must assignments be piling up
Why can't I have more time
Why am I not going overseas for holidays
Why am I even in this course

I'm gonna start planning activity for attachment.

2008-10-17T07:26:00.001-07:00

It seems like I'm living my life to please another. I'm so tired. I'm so sick of using this word but I can't find another way to put it ):

Swr, please be okayy I know this is prolly the roughest time but be strong yes. You have N & I. I'm sure you can be better (: Love you.

2008-10-12T06:54:00.000-07:00

I don't matter so why bother.

I will not call this pms I would say, I've issues with myself.

2008-10-09T08:38:00.000-07:00

I wanna be the one you'd turn to regardless what happens to you & be just that one who treats you better than anyone could. Just whats the possibility?

Am so drained from everything. Things got worse for me & am definitely not coping well. Its like work's rather stressing sometimes, school's starting next week, training's good but I need to self train to improve faster, & something else I don't wish to mention here. Oh & one more thing, I don't even have time for my family. I feel so frustratedddd ):

2008-10-08T02:13:00.001-07:00

Its been so long since I blogged here. Anywayyy, just got home from lunch with Phin Nov (the rest left earlier) & 3 of SP ladies haha (: Gonna get ready for work noww & am feeling daaamn tired. Plans to take a nap didn't work out. Am so broke for the weeeek my pay's only coming in next month! This is terrible. Kay I love Phin's cologne! It smells so nice Haha.

Tonight tonight (:

Okay time to get ready. Bye dudez.

2008-09-24T10:20:00.000-07:00

Its tearing up my heart when I'm with you,
But when we are apart I feel it too.

That was then,

Three days of rest didn't feel like its enough. Worked tonight cause I felt bad taking sudden leave again. My time of the month is here & can you imagine cramps plus gastric?! I wonder how I pulled through Hawhaw.

I need that self-discipline there.

Imissyou.
Goodnight humans.

2008-09-23T08:16:00.000-07:00

This is gonna be a major rant post. I can feel my love handles growing on me afterr all the eat sleep routines I had the past 2 days & my tummy's reaaalllyyy bloatedd & hardd. This is reaallyy worrying causee I hate to feel troubled over putting on weight cause yknww losing weight is neverr easy. I can say this is not paranoia cause its reaallyyy NOT. Shit wtf have I done to myselff. I wish I ate on time I wish I never skipped meals I wish my immune system is stronger that I wouldn't have to fall sick twice in a month?! Daaamn the putting on weight shit.

Kay whateverr. I need to run.

2008-09-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush?

Two sessions of rowing today along with the almighty sun was no joke. I seriously think the ozone layer iss worn out or something. I'm beginning to expand sideways which is ratherr worrying. This spells a need to yknw what, eat LESS.

Abandon these thoughts,
Please.

2008-09-19T08:33:00.000-07:00

Why do I keep running from the truth,
When all I think about is you.

My temparament's reaaallyy atrocious. I hate how I get annoyed at minor issues so easily I need some management on that I need to control :/ Today was town with the same three last night (: Dtf for dinnerr. I need to spend lesser next week already, whats more I haven't been working.

& Hi Happy Pill I guess you'll be reading this. Stop playing your speedtest & calling me a cheaterbug I haven't even played okay haha. Seeee youu sooooon (: Like just this Sunday maybe? Haha.

Let me in,

2008-09-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

Thankyou for sending me home all the way up ten storeys walked past the corridor to the extreme end (: I know I won't be wrong about this.

Now, I must think of a name for W15 hehe. I'm dropping thoughts for SC I realise I was rather rash. Rochor beancurd for supper with P Nobel & Wr after dinnerr with the ladies at market (: I kinda miss working Haha.

I neeeeed to rest my back.

2008-09-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

I can even tie it up. Guess. What.

My appetite's really horrendous I think it made up for Sat & Sun haha. No work for me for the rest of the weeeeeek! Kay sleep early dudessss.

Just another girl, who took my breath away.

2008-09-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

I fell so fast,
can't hold myself Back.

Happy Birthday Phin.

I saw Claudia today like after 12389172946 years Oh dearr. Missed you.

2008-09-12T08:52:00.000-07:00

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you.
Are you holding back
Like the way I do.

2008-09-11T09:24:00.000-07:00

I'm staring at perfection,

I'm sorry.

2008-09-10T10:10:00.000-07:00

So happy together,

A moment of thrills I know is the best for me.

2008-09-09T08:57:00.000-07:00

I was never wrong about you

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are.

2008-09-07T10:30:00.000-07:00

Stranger.

Taking the transport home from work took me 1hr when I could've actually walked home & save 45min. Hawwww. Tonight's much better I finished everything within an hour & we had so much time to kill Haha. I dread training, be it running or rowing, while having flu it shortens my breath like most of the time hurr.

Rooms & more space for improvements. I want that so badly now I'm halfway gone without even trying. Where's that passion gone to Why is it I don't feel the anxiety to get it done.
Sometimes, I don't know what is it I really want.

Why.

I hate insecurities.

Corrinne May's voice is love.

2008-09-06T02:16:00.000-07:00

I took the chance that I'm even at home for two whole days to really think back on how I was. & I'm starting to wonder why I took up this job why I choose to tire myself out just because I knew I'd be heartbroken I needed something to occupy myself why I choose this sport out of so many others & why, why did I allow you to break me.

There's nothing for me to expect except whats in there for me at work What're my plans for the next day When am I meeting up with friends I've not seen for ages How am I to manage my time. I really hate the idea of trying so hard just to be someone I'm not. Yknw many a time, you just feel like being happy, forgive & forget everything else. I did. But the minute I feel unfair, I give up trying to the point when I feel like telling them off. Just a state of confusion playing a bit of mind games & I'm through.

snap.

2008-09-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

I don't even know my true feelings.

I've updated everything on my lj, I'm so lazyy now.
Hope I'll be well enough to train tomorrow.

Goodnight humans.

2008-09-03T10:42:00.000-07:00

Just one reason why I hate you.

Training at Kallang this morning, Suntec for lunch then town with them. I was so drained I wanted to give work a miss. I kinda dislike my job, now that its really stressing me up ttm. I spent 15min complaining to Wr just then I swear the time of the month is coming. My right hand is trembling quite badly now & my wirst is starting to hurt Okay nothing beats what I'm feeling noww.

Goodnight humans. You suck.

2008-08-31T07:59:00.000-07:00

I'M MISSING BAYBEATS CAUSE OF IDK. Sad but whatever I just wanna hear one band Okay maybe two, & I want that band's shirt.

Work's seriously draining me out.
Sat, training at Kallang in the morning The first 10min was killerr more to come More to come. Cine for lunch then cabbed to work. Aches on my shoulders & just purely tired. Dad picked me at 2am. I have work on every of my other free days Like I'm starting to feel I don't have my personal time anymore. I wonder how it'll be like when school reopens I'm sure I'll be too worn out to think of anything.

Today's good Just that I didn't attend mass. Mustafa with my mum Haha I spent mostly on food. Headed to Woodsvale afterr. Goooood dinner (: I cancelled work today. They're like out to tire me or smth. If I work today I'd end at 0030 then tmr's work is 0645?!

Standard Chartered Half Marathon 21.1km! (:
October's major marathon month for me. 10km rowing & 10km running.

I need sleep. Now.
Goodnight humans.

2008-08-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

TODAY'S FINALLY HERE (:

I'm gonna be the most grumpy person ever tomorrow My work's at 6:45AM I have to wake at 5:45AM I'm gonna freeze from the morning breeeze I'm gonna skip breakfast for the sake of catching 10 more minutes of sleep I'm gonna do gym with my eyes closed Haha okay no. I'm so lazy to put punctuation marks So whatever

Met RachelSng & XYZ after so really long with Celine Wr Gf & FL. Chinatown for porridge & I really wanted to go Play tonight just that ugh I was in Fbt.

Anyway I didn't gym today Okay basically my batch didn't train today cause of some event thing & we had to roww for an hour Quite fun just that I was yearning to get outta that place My phone's connection kept changing to INDONESIA line?! Like wtf you have no idea how annoying that is.

I've been on waters for rowing since Tuesday & oh dearr I'm having the feeling like I'm on waters noww I keep thinking there's earthquake Haha wth. Okay time to sleep. Good day tomorrow cause I'll be up in the gym just working on my fitness SHE'S my witness.

Goodnight humans.

2008-08-27T10:14:00.000-07:00

Today's a really long day. Training at Kallang at 9:15am. I got to use Trivium paddle (:
The rest left. Cabbed to Suntec with gf Phin & Cy! I really hate it when it rains especially after training at Kallang cause there's no shelter to the buss stop or whatever. Kay anyway, met Sam for a while for lunch then back to B&J's with gf & Phin.
Work's really tiring. Today's rather good cause I get to prepare drinks & stuff Haha. Oh dearr Friday's shift is 6:45AM in the MORNING. What about my Thursday night?!
Kay tomorrow's a longer day. I need sleep noww.

Regretted treating you as my friend.
I don't even want you as my friend. Fuck.
Yes, do you even know this is to YOU?

2008-08-26T05:47:00.001-07:00

There's still no news from the clubs I'm going mad.
Anyhoww, stayed over at Supergirl's place last night (: Haha we had Mac & Cheese & okay it sucked. Cabbed to Kallang for training today, & its the first time I was ever so early for Kallang's training. Left to Meridien for lunch then to Starbucks after with gf, Vanessa & Cy! Sophia was there doing her work Haha I'm amazed by my thumb. Kay the left thumb is starting to hurt.

I need to get my mind into the working mode. I feel so reluctant to turn up for work & what I'm on night shift 6-12:30AM tmr. Oh dearr. Tomorrow's a really long day So,

early night.
Goodnight humans.

2008-08-24T06:54:00.000-07:00

Beckham was present at Olympics closing ceremony & all he did was
stand on top of the bus & KICK a damn soccer ball & wave.
Haha I'm looking forward to Youth Olympics.

1) Been far away for far too long. I miss you.
2) Forever is ours to hold.
3) Stay close, don't go.
4) Your words are memories, but they burn.
Figure (:
Inspired by __babydolll haha.

Work tmr at 8am, its bloody early I hate it. I have issues with myself getting up early.
I'll be so grumpy & cranky & annoyed & all sorts of irritable mood. Kay whateverr
No such things I'll be fine.
My parents cooked chilli crabs for din din Love it.

Mass this morning at Blessed with Gerri then I slept the day away.
Its awesome to sleep in during rainy days, don't you think?

I know what you're in game for. Yet I insisted.
I hate you.
I tried peace in many ways I swear.
Oh fuck. where is No war gone to. Where is peace.
): Why me.

2008-08-23T09:26:00.000-07:00

Baybeats'08 Oh I'm so going. I hope.

This morning was training. I was so tired when I got home I slept for 15min.
Raffles City to meet Joyce Pris Liwei. I haven't seen LW in a long time!
Okay we walked all overr then settled at Esplanade for fireworks. Chess came.
Gf came for a while (:
The pretty colours lasted for 15min, bused to Dempsey's after that.
I haven't had B&J for so long Kay I just had it.
I'm bloody tired now. & it doesn't make me feel better after knowing.
You think you ought to have better after you PLAYED?! Or uhh, cheated. Oh dearr.

My supergirl's strong hehe (:

Goodnight humans. Peace yes. No war. Panic if you need But don't forget to chill.
Cows milk. Moooooo.

2008-08-22T08:12:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to feel
To feel like I'm close to feeling nothing.

Somethings are just great some are not.
Today's the last day for classes when everybody just gets to know each other better.
Anyway, went to Haji lane today. & yeah I spent.
I spent on something I need so not that bad. I just feel some digits lesser in my bank acc.
I didn't know Shaw House existed but at least now I know.
I really hope they can reply me faster than bolt. I'm really nervouss!

Okay no shows for me tonight I'm really TIRED.
Goodnight humans.

2008-08-20T09:27:00.000-07:00

THREE!

I dread waking up every morning.
I was so irritated with the snooooooze this morning & shut it. & I woke an hour late.
Haha I think I'll have trouble getting up early when school starts
Long way long way.
Class today was okay. The world's amazingly small.
Everyone seems to know everyone in a way. Its scary.

Self trained this morning.
& because of all the snooooozing I had to rush & zomg,
MY WATCH DROPPED FACE FIRST ON THE FLOOR ):
Wtf, stunned seriousy. Kay obviously there's an internal crack.
I'm getting over it, getting over it!
Tomorrow's Kihong session again, greatt!

Goodnight humans.

2008-08-19T09:51:00.000-07:00

Two.

I had tom yum twice today. Feels so great.
Picked Novelyn up at school in the morning, surprisingly
it took me only 1hr15min to get ready & travel to school haha, break record.
Headed to Vivo for Thai Express & yes I got blue!
Maybe the black one soon? I hope. Starbucks to take...
Photographer is Novelyn & the rest is Model's own HAHA!
Oh we saw Lam again I think the third time I coincidentally see her in this month hehe.
Bugis first then HQ for classes. Really sleeppyyyyy.
I need to take a fucking typhoid jab.

Kay back to showww so
Goodnight humans.

I think you're disgusting so maybe I won't even bother wasting my time to see you. You have absolutely zero dignity in that sense & basically just shameless.

2008-08-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

When everything's the same & nothing ever changes,
Will you fall back into me?

The long awaited,
Exams're over & done with! Oh how I love it.
So now's back to making up for not training the past week,
& I've to shop for work. Don't wanna be wearing the same thing at least twice a week haha.
Tomorrow's going Kihong with my gf, its the aftermath of examinations.
Night class afterr I hope I stay awake.

Back to usual routine of watching shows haha so glad (:
Kay goodnight humans Study hard!

Oh, I think pole vault is cool. & I just love the ultimate 200m race.
WHEN'S RELAYS!

2008-08-17T18:59:00.000-07:00

One.

The most difficult thing to do is to drag yourself out of bed.
Finally awake after an hour of snoozing.
Am really tired Thank God today's last paperr.

Zouk flea for the second time & still didn't get anything.
Its really damn bloody difficult to find a shoe,
Haha okay back to the pieces of papers.

I'm in & out of love with you
Trying to find if its really true.

2008-08-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

& the tear in your eye, & your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place.

Yesterday was good. Had my first paper in the afternoon then its meeting Novelyn
heading to Peninsular together. She got her cool cam. Wr & Chess came afterr!
So we cancelled Newton for Max Brenner's. Yes gf, no regrets hehe (:
Novelyn left so we went to town for Coffee Club. I have this urge to spend on California Fitness.

Today is good. Studied at NP's library in the morning Kay its because I'm lazy to get a
textbook so I was there to copy notes from reference book = textbook hehe.
Suntec's Maui Wowi (?! I reckon the name comes from Maui & Sons haha ) to study with
some of the ladies (: Raffles city afterr to meet the Poop then United Square with the familyrelatives haha. I missed the 100m finals OH DEARR ): The world record's broken I really wanted to teleport home. No its okay I'll be there to witness the 200m hehe.

I need to outdo the stress bomb.
Goodnight humans. Study hard!

2008-08-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

Wokay, so what now
Livejournal's decided to irritate me.
I'm finally done with Exam Tips & moving on to memorising.
Seriously, whats with the stress bomb I really hate exam stress ):
So today's a rather productive stay-home-study day.
We complain about studyingg for almost half our lives away,
if only Study doesn't exist But no.

I realise there's still a baton on my table. I really miss track
When all we do is run & the only event I'll look forward to training it is relay.
Haha. If only.

Kay back to stress bombzxzxzz.
Goodnight humans I really wanna watch an episode laterr (:

2008-08-13T12:11:00.000-07:00

Take them memories
I don't need them to feel good.

The worst thing that could happen just 2days before your examination is,
realising that all along you've been studying for this particular module cause you thought
its gonna be tested first But no, its the otherr.
How awesome, explains why I'm still awake at this hour &
on second thoughts, I'd better stay home tmr cause I dislike wasting time on travelling.
Thank God.

A need to get all black shoes by Sunday I don't havee.
This is the first time after a year, I've decided to clearr up the mess
& studyy on the table.
Feels so goooooooooooooood haha.
No more 1min back aches.

Kay time to catch an episode.
Goodnight humans.

On a very random note: I wanna return you, yes you, the book. Not wanting to be reminded of uhh ... stuffs. Kay bye.

2008-08-12T10:45:00.000-07:00

Some heartfelt emotions Creeping from deep inside
Cause being this person is all I've got left to hide.

While caught up in reminiscing, chanced upon the wronged
I see nothing but them acts & lies spoken of.
Cause from then till now, now &now,
Nothing could be worse off.

Not once, twice But thrice.
Just for the record.

2008-08-12T08:53:00.000-07:00

I dislike the feeling of not enjoying food.
My gum's swelling up more & its really infectious
its spreadingg to my upper gum.
Oh dearr I hope it doesn't spread to every part of it.
Fuck, I just sprained my neck ):

I hope to sleep forever.
Damn it.

2008-08-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

Drop the past & be true.
you've hurt me bad But I won't shed a tear.

The videos are cracking me up.
I did productive revisionn todayy Whoo,
Why must them sizes be 39?!
Teleporting should exist I wanted to be in town immediately.
Lj's drivingg me up the wall.

Stop hatred But I can't stand the way you portray yourself & how you're trying so hard to be somebody else.
& I really dislike people who meddles with another & end up hurting her & tries to cover up by saying a mere SORRY.

Oh dearr, so much hatred alreadyy.
Goodnight humans Save the earth!

2008-08-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hello world.
Since lj's being a beetch now I'd blog here.
Saturday was spent at One fullerton with Joycelynn Yushan Puiyee Pris & Chess.
A leetle different from last year. Who cares.
Met Wr. Went to MS. Left for airport.
Stayed up the whole night Completed some work,
ate till my gums are swelled up ):
No joke, lack of sleep leads to insanity.
We tried doing up a video to "Warwick Avenue".
Haha left around 8am.
Kay I wasted a Sunday away Oh dearr.

Am velly lazy to update the peektures I'm so irritated with Ljjjjjjjjjjjjj.
Kay whatevss am gonna laugh at the videoooos noww Haha fuck.

Goodnight humans. Study hard stop lying.
& maybe stop playing around. Tyvm, Bye.

2008-08-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

At this rate I'm going, I'll turn into a couch potato velly sooooon.
I'm just about to finish the whole tub of ice creaaam in uhh a weeeek?!
I haven't been doing productivee long hours of revisionn
I need to hit the gym again sooooon & today's self training is cancelled oh dearr.
I seriously feel, obese ):

Honestly, teevees are such distractions Don't you think?
I feel like staying in a village.
Kay tomorrow's training is really earrlyy but then again,
I'll have the rest of the day to studyy. Okay no,
Am going for fireworkss! (:

Wokay, I feel sleeeepy after typingg thisssss.
Haha OneRepublic has awesomee songs.

Random.

2008-08-06T11:48:00.000-07:00

I'm no longer,
Crazy for this girl.

2008-08-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

I'm dreaming out loud, dreaming out loud.

Sometimes things get so complexed that we forget the simplicity of them all.
So simple when things began, so complicated once things get outta hand.
& When we get just a little too busy trying to fix a very complexed situation
We forget just how beautiful it started How simple it could've been if we had just kept it there.

Exactly what a human brain does to us.
Think thoughts.

This is what boredom does to humans. You'll think till you get afraid.
Like, Why bother thinking?
Right?

Goodnight humans.

2008-08-05T10:48:00.000-07:00

What a period of let down.
I'm holding onto nothing. I know,
I can't handle this Not anymore
I only want the best of one world.
I find this so fucking tough. So,
time to release.

Repitition.

2008-08-03T10:07:00.000-07:00

Two steps removed from everything I thought I knew
There's no remedy I see your face in everything I do.
I rest my head from running circles round my head
No answers to be found, romances don't rewind
I guess I'll never know
Why your absence is devastating.

My mind's clear
I need to be me.

2008-08-02T23:00:00.000-07:00

I feel like using a new fragrance.

Do you even understand what's love all about?

2008-08-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

Very much unpredictable like I've always expected.
Surprisingly, I felt nothing Nothing at all when I sat at United Square's Starbucks.
Everything is fading.

My aspiration to be a runner. Why.

2008-07-31T08:03:00.000-07:00

One word.

Not that amazing anymore.
I'm tired. tired. tired. tired. tired. tired. tired.

I slept for 3hr just now. GG seriously. Why does my 1hr tutorial have to be tmr when I don't have my next 2hr tutorial after. Its always like that & I have a test tmr I have to write a 500 word essay?! GG.

Goodnight humans.

2008-07-30T10:36:00.000-07:00

Can't be more bothered by anything, can I?

Self trained in the morning with Novelyn (: Met Swr for dinner at Chinaatownnn Whoo. The porridge is awesome today yes yes. Looked for xlb but settled on desserts instead. I know shit about Chinaatownnnn. oh, there's like 1buck durians haha kay I didn't know that. Walked over to Central's Starbucks.

Thankyou P for going home with me (: I was shocked but yeah glad hehe.

Its getting late I need sleep. Goodnight humans.

2008-07-29T09:50:00.000-07:00

I'm lazyy to update here. Kay whatevsss I just have no mood.
I think today was just a final bloww. I feel upset in a way yet extremely pissed.
I can't bring myself to believe a thing you say no more.
Seriously, girls are not just for you to feel safe. Look at yourself.
Changing as & when you like, when you feel happier?
No one, no one will take your lies for long.
I wish I could take back all I ever saidd All I ever felt.
& I wish you could take back all your shit lies cause right noww,
it don't matter to me anymore & never will they ever again.
This is just something I have to fight it through & I'm gonna win.
I will win.
I knoww it for sure cause friends are all I need & have.
Get my facts right? oh Sure I would love to
Sad to say I got them perfectly right without a wordd from you.
Seriously, just quit it. Damn.

I feel like having chinatown porridge. SWR!!

2008-07-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

Blogging at blogspot & lj is interesting. Crap.

Joy says:
my nose is running
Novelyn says:
Aiyo sick uh you
Joy says:
hahahaa
Joy says:
sounds funny
Joy says:
my nose is running
Joy says:
but my feet ain't smelling
Joy says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Novelyn says:
HAHAHAHAHA WTHHH!!!!
Novelyn says:
OMG OKAY HAHAHAHA
Novelyn says:
Shi lame dao!
Joy says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
Joy says:
SERIOUSLY LAH
Joy says:
WHATS WITH THE LOGIC

Her name's in pink cause she's ahlian. HAHA kay kidding I really am. Love you (:

Am boredddd. 1 2 3 poof.
Goodnight.

2008-07-23T23:14:00.001-07:00

Second post. Am really boredd.
I think I'm becoming deaf, the volume on my laptop is increasing unknowingly & even if its increased I feel the volume's the same. Kay am gonna study in 5 mins.

4 to be a hero.

Looks are deceiving. Am starting to wonder wonder wonder
Yes no point, but why lie. Why bother lying to me.
This won't change any's point of view of you. I say, I stand firm
I say, I fall back I say, I move on.
3.

To be with you. My every desire.

2008-07-23T22:03:00.000-07:00

I need to study for my test tmr, & I have less than 24hr to revise.
But txfb's addictive haha. Lazy.
So my trip's changed to Saturday morning. Early early morning.
I wanna eat Minstrels alot alot of them (:
Kay I want new Havaianas too.
Thin strap? Coolz.

Good day humanz.

2008-07-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

I hate it when the tv's louder than my music.
The tap was on for 6 fucking hours.
I laughed I cried today I fucking cried.
I miss you, but who cares.
I like to be emo & again, who cares.
You drag me down.

Random shit. but then, Who cares?

2008-07-13T20:50:00.000-07:00

Feelings show.

Its a good thing we both know. Maybe just me. At least I knew now than later. Some things I just don't understand, I may never get it through. But forget it, you need your break I need mine. Why rush? No we're not rushing no more. Take your sweet sweet time, I'll stay for this minute. This moment gone & I'll be done with them tears. I came unprepared, light hearted & rather hopeful. Now am taking this this this away. Talk is cheap.

2008-07-04T09:23:00.000-07:00

She got my fly high high high, (:

I should have stayed for the results for the Finals, ugh.

2008-06-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

I feel I don't belong, not anywhere.
Its worthless to leave it behind, yet I'm crying.
Whats this?

...................

2008-06-19T14:40:00.000-07:00

I feel tremors at err Lets see 541am now. But no, the blinds aren't moving.

Fun fun fun, a beet too much I need to go running tomorrow.
Its really moving baadly, this is crazy. I'm too tired to care about anything or those ones, not anymore. Fuck this.

Photo frame, wallet ........................................ Throw.
I can't believe you,

2008-06-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

Doubled vision Twisted words.
How to believe, How not to doubt?

Passion. I miss..

Fuck, not again.

2008-06-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

I belong somewhere else. Too much for me to take here, I need to start planning.

Breathe,

2008-06-10T10:33:00.000-07:00

I knew the two ladies were kaypo-ing,
Love you,
As promised, yes? (:

Your school's so near my place, we can study together! & can't wait to see youu, if possible this week, (: I noticed, you screamed lesser ytd. Love you Pretty teo!

2008-06-07T03:40:00.000-07:00

I feel restricted. A limit to feel, or care. What's this, I'm tired to feel.
Never never never appreciated.

CTs finally finally overr.

One thing, Joe's coming back in July. Hopefully.

Thanks P, (: I'm looking forward to the car ride, shopping plus your so-cooooool dance!
you made me, not just a beet, but A LOT more enlightened.

Blind.

2008-06-01T07:33:00.000-07:00

I.am.very.stressed. ):

There's a need to MIA, yes definitely.

see you in a week's time.

2008-05-31T22:12:00.000-07:00

The time is slow & I'm sinking
Into a hole blackened with lies.
& though I made it myself,
You stand watching as my life passes me by.

The third time, my parents have self proclaim holidays. This time to Perth. I hope they buy me things, I know they won't. Enjoy.

Hello common test, you're tomorrow.

That, alone, inspired me to run. I forgot whats the relay competition.

2008-05-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

Struggling with my thoughts
Change the locks inside my head.
Reading between the lines
Of what you say & what you said.

My dinner is so late. I had two eggs today Plus two yesterday, whoo. & Finallyy, productive study today.
I just just just realised something.

We had a good laugh over Madtv Its really funny haha.

Steam steam steamboat tmr.

Hello, I'm tired stop finding faults.

2008-05-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

Favourite.

So what now?
Cause my heart is breaking with every word I'm saying,

2008-05-28T07:00:00.000-07:00

Holding on, Barely holding on.

I believe, yet not so.

Finally been to Varsity Park. Only the study room not the house. Tomorrow tomorrow.

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I'm here still waiting though I still have my doubts,
I'm damaged at best, like you've already figured out.

2008-05-27T09:34:00.000-07:00

Trying.

Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like
We've got it figured out.

Happy Birthday, Love.

I'll be loving you, forever.

2008-05-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

Time heals, but these scars
Keep on tearing us apart.
Sometimes ending,
is the only place to start.

This is getting to me, only now.
Buck up Buck up.

Strawberry/Pomegranate yoghurt drink (:

2008-05-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

Empty.

Burning on, just like a match you strike to incinerate the lives of everyone you know. Came a time, when every star falls. Brought you to tears again. We are the very hurt you sold, & whats the worst you take From every heart you break & like a blade you stain Well, I've been holding on tonight.
Can you hear me Are you near me. Can we pretend to leave & then We'll meet again, when both our cars collide. So long & goodnight So long Not & goodnight.

I'm.Annoyed.Very.Much.
To a point where if an ant is to crawl on my laptop, I'll flip.

Common test is in one week. No textbook? Winner.

Its like getting familiarised with a new environment, all over again.

My decision will be to leave.

2008-05-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

You'll always be a part of me,
I'm part of you indefinitely.

The period of time when stress steps in.

None down, two to go. & I'm trying velly velly hardd to get started.
I think its very annoying how I have sooooooo much in mindd to blog on my way home but, forget everything when I'm here sitting down with a not so calmed mind & stressing myself out.
This is crazy.
This is crazy.
This is crazy.

We did relays today which means sprints which means (: what a gooooood feeling.

2008-05-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

A table for two.

I'll be fine, you'll be fine
This moments seems so long.
Don't waste now, precious time
We'll dance inside the song.

The last time I met Charleneteo is 19th April & yes today, (: I had yoggi, thankyouu.
Met Charmaine to studyy at Starbucks too. I have photos I have photos. I'm just velly lazy.

-

We're both looking for something We've been afraid to find.
Its easier to be broken Its easier to hide.

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scaredd to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside.

The world that I see inside you Waiting to come to life.
Waking me up to dreaming Reality in your eyes.

We're crashing into the unknown.
We're lost in this But it feels like home.

Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right.
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight,
Like being in love with you for the first time.

2008-05-18T07:39:00.000-07:00

Right now, I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you.

Aimlessly. Going about trying to familiarise, getting used & accepting.

Start, start concentrating I need. Nothing's being absorbed & I'll be pen-ning everything learnt down in less than 15 days. Goodness. Stressed, very much?
Not much of a good feeling no more. Two words, just two okay.

This, itself, is enough.

Supergirl, yknw you're velly impt so please cheer up I think I'd prefer you to hehehe like a bimbo, (: yes love you.
& Gf, your "I give you *hug" is whoohoo, hehe just when I needed that. <3>

Will you stay awake for me?
I'll give you my heart on a string.

2008-05-17T19:31:00.000-07:00

I wear scarves & hoods,
Cause they're the only poker face that I got left.
& everything I love about you is a mess.

Look, what you're doing to me. Too afraid to show, too afraid for the world to know.
I'm tired of everything, the emotions you put me through.

2008-05-17T05:43:00.000-07:00

I finally built up the strength to walk away
Don't regret it but I still live with the side effects.

I found 10 packets of Pillows for 2.50bucks. I stocked up food just in case my 15min nap in the noon takes effect later on.

Write read notes book paper & pen, hello.

Cause you can't have the best of both worlds, I'll take the pick.

2008-05-15T09:05:00.000-07:00

Really had me going.

Is it really shocking to have 67 unread emails?

I'm dreading school already. Well, only the annoying hill especially when the weather's exceptionally hot. & IT.

The way you make my world go round.

2008-05-13T07:55:00.000-07:00

Happy 17th Mer! I love you.

I'm. seriously. drained.
yes both mentally & physically.

Whats left of me,

2008-05-11T01:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day.

Now I'm having a reversed eating disorder.
I want endless dose of ice cream.

zomg, dad & mum are leaving for Vietnam this weekendd. 3 freaking nights, whoo!
Hello people, come over for mahjong yes? (:

Okay gonna start on the unfinished business. haha Unfinished business reminds me of Joy Luck Club.

heeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-05-09T09:23:00.000-07:00

She makes my heart itch,
& I'm crazy for this girl.

I finally met Wanru after Idk how long & haha her hair grew. Charmaine came after self training, walked around townn & yes I got my new fragrance, whoo! Went to Dempsey's for B&J then Dome then home.

My phone dropped into the dustbin filled with disgusting water & ugh its deadd now. Thank God I have a spare phone but I feel so empty cause the messages are all in my phonee, zomg.

This is my first time, spending my own chings for Mother's Day.

I don't wantt Monday to come. Yet I want it to.

2008-05-08T08:20:00.000-07:00

Don't know what you do to me but,
everytime I'm with you its a natural high.
Its like rediscovering Eden,
with chocolate coated rainbows & cotton candy skies.

She came along & yes its a natural high.
Today,
Back to school for training & I'm home I'm home! I needd a great plan for Saturdayy.

Things are probably just. different. or rather it is.

2008-05-06T07:29:00.000-07:00

Lets hold on to each other above everything else,
& start over, start overr.

One thing, one thing. I answeredd a question CORRECTLY in Novey's lecture today! whoo! but the prize was like shit, I didn't even eatt it.

Napfa for training today.

lets all give three cheers to IT lecture & tut tmr, I can just die. but, its okay, I know Novelyn Supergirl Teoh will keep me company with her gossips, hehe.

goodnight.

2008-05-03T08:51:00.000-07:00

Stay as close with me, I'll give you all you need.
Promise you won't break, promise you won't stray.

2008-05-01T20:07:00.000-07:00

You can say those words,
& rest assure I'm feeling it I'm feeling it for you.

2008-05-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

Notes in my drawers, songs in my pockets
Fragments of letters that you sent.
Staring at your photograph, trying to take it down
There's still a stirring in my heart.

Pms annoys me. Sudden badd moods annoys me. I hadd much to say just then, but your mood spoilt mine.

I'm a little lightened up, I'm having coronet bun for breakfastt tmr.
Mum: You're getting bread for your bf is it?
Me: What?!?!?!
(so she called & bf turns out to be "Breakfast") -.-

goodnight.

2008-04-30T18:57:00.000-07:00

Why couldn't you get what I'm trying to say to you.
You got me on a emotional rollercoaster once again.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
It couldn't be that we've been this way before.
I know you don't think that I'm trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core.

But hold your breath,

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again.
Don't make me change my mind.

I won't live to see another day,
I swear its true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find.

This is not what I intended.
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart.
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start.

Finally, this is everything I wanted to say. I hope you get it.

2008-04-29T07:25:00.001-07:00

I'm crazy for this girl,
right now, rightt noww.

S&W only, for todayy. Went over to NT's placee. I realise most of our conversations starts with " zomg yknw........." Bread & hard boiled egg for lunchh. Headed back to school & zomg the weather can kill. Thanks Samzzz for lending me your tummy to lie on, haha!

Didn't trainn today & so I went homee earlyy. zomg & I slept just now, best no sleep for me tonight already.

I want island creamery.

2008-04-27T08:17:00.001-07:00

Do you.

So we got married at home. Cause I'm sick Cause she'd rather do smth else. See, ultimately she's at fault, haha. okay kidding.

So I stayed at home todayy. I don't feel like going to school tmr. I'm looking forward to Labour Day. Vinee's birthday is coming! zomg so random.

goodnight.

2008-04-26T09:16:00.000-07:00

Heehee.

Rowing. Dinner. Fever no more!

Charmaine is so nice today, she accompanied me home because I had feverr, (: thankss!
zomg we're getting married tmr! wahahaha. at 23:03. Venue to be confirmed, HAHA.

I almost died due to excessive perspiration. I had trouble doing up my stupid tutorial workk, zomg.

I need to get more fbts & singlets & socks & water bottle.

goooodnight.

2008-04-24T09:04:00.000-07:00

I'll take care of you.
Have faith I'll be there.

The thing in my eye is annoying me to the max. I hate feeling uncomfortable, ughh. My whole training was screwed, partly cause of that. Self training tmr, I guess. & I'm only going to school for 1hr.

& how about, I feel depressed now.
& how about, I feel really annoyed.
& how about, sad?

whatever, this sucks. I'm gonna sleep it off though its not gonna work.

Better day tmr.

2008-04-23T19:32:00.000-07:00

Because you made me believe in myself,
when nobody else can help.

Training on Tuesdayy was zomg okay. Besides the old injury on my arm, hurr.
I had IT lessons the whole of ytd, I can die. Chomp Chomp & Liquid Kitchen after. Punggol later onn. I just spent much much on cabs ytd, saddy waddy.

Watching Bucket List with Noveyy Bobby & Charmaine laterr. okay Char doesn't know we're watching, hehe. Training after, & zomg my arm's killing me. Okay, I'm boreddd.

I haven't felt this wayy in a long time.

2008-04-21T07:31:00.000-07:00

You look so beauuutiful today,
When you're sitting there is hard for me to look away.

Feeling it, I'm feeling it again. But I know I'm not in for it, anymore.

They talk about Monday blues, they talk about sugar rushes, they talk about anxiety all. I was really shagged today I fell asleep in every Lt or Tut. & break was (: Sam!!!!! we seriously need to take a chill pill, haha.
School ended. Ivin's for dinner with Nov & Bobz. Met Wr & Bel there.

I'm velly glad. No more 6hr break tmr. Which means I won't end at 6. Which means I won't be late for Tuesday trainings. Which means Idk whatever.

zzz.

2008-04-20T08:39:00.000-07:00

I've never felt nothing in the world like this before,
how I'm missing you & wishing you'd come back through my door.

Not to pin hopes Not anymore.

If only you got what I meant. Yet I hope you didn't. Do you get this, do you get this?
The point of time I feel the worst.

2008-04-19T09:26:00.001-07:00

I JUST MISSED THE THREADLESS SPREE, DAMN IT.

2008-04-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

I'd beg for you, but I don't kneel.
So why not come & take a drink with me.

Goooooood yet not so good. Stc's funfair today & whoo I got to see many many people. I love to sing Low. So addictive. Caught up with a couple of people. Bobby came down after training, hehe. Headed to CJ for dinnerr. Bobz & I didn't feel like going home so we sorta accompanied Nov homee & we ended up at her placee. Cabbed home after. I'm velly velly shagged.

I miss yknw who, hehe.

Not another emotional rollercoaster.

2008-04-18T09:54:00.000-07:00

I knew I'll come to regret it.

Cause you put me through so many emotions,

Be okay please, ugh.

2008-04-18T06:56:00.000-07:00

Tonight's the night that I'll fall for you.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find, impossible to find.

School's draining me out, really badly. Stc's funfair tmr, I think I think I'm gonna runn after that. I bought my loooooong loooooong time ago wanna buy havaianas, happy me, (: & & more more stuffs too, hehe.

Just when I was gonna let you know everything, just everything.
I think its better that I don't, things would be better this way.

Should I go for the Click 5 concert or get my Cheap Monday jeans? zomg, I've got one vote for Click 5, whoo!

I secretly, secretly love everything about her.

2008-04-17T08:45:00.000-07:00

I.Am.Tireddddddddddddddddd.

Training.Training.Training.
I don't feel like attending school tmr already, I feel I feel I can sleep velly velly soundly later on.
Pandoraaa! Please drive me homeee every Tuesday & Thursday from NP thankyou velly much, haha. O.O

Make it simple & easy. I love you.

I hope you get it.

2008-04-16T07:03:00.000-07:00

Its the end of the world in my mind.
Then your voice pulls me back, like a wake up call.

Wednesdays equals to IT day. It seriously sucks especially after such a long break. I yawned 23 times in a minute, I think. Holland with Mc & Samzzz during break I ate my coronet, hehe (:

No school no school I can finally sleep in.

' ❤samantha. maintain says:
I GOT 4 CONSECUTIVE
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
I AM GG TO WIN SOONhaha
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
the rest so noob
Joy says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Joy says:
you lose I laugh
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
okay
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
fuck
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
i just lose
Joy says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA

she's playing Viwawa, haha so lousyyyyyyyy.

TC!

2008-04-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

Soulmate.

I've no school on Thursdays for the first two weeks! & then it'll be attachments already.
I wish Nobel can teleport home now, I want I want the picture, hehe.

There's this superrr huge furry furry wormy thing that crawled onto my laptop case today :O
& haha, I flicked it to the guy sitting next to me because he was rude he didn't mention Excuse me when he wanted to have the sit beside.
I felt bad after.

I think she has the same middle name as I, (:

2008-04-14T21:20:00.000-07:00

I'm bored.

2008-04-14T07:08:00.000-07:00

David & Goliath spreeeeeeee!

School starts today. I signed up for db, unknowingly haha. Did gym for a while then lessons. Samzzz is seriously hilarious, zomg I can die laughing. Maybe, I'll crash NT's lecture tmr hehe. & I think my school's insane. The air-con is really free flow & we had to open all doors & windows.

zomg, I wanna get the Robots make better lovers shirt. no, maybe I'll get. or yeah, I should just get it now.

I think training starts on Thursday, O.O

zzz.