cos everytime i'll be the one on the losing stand,

sch is kinda boring nowadays cos i don't see any point in going to sch anymore other than to study. it used to be looking out for you, but i guess i was too foolish. had farewell for ms goh after sch & it sucks to see people leaving, hurr whatever. went holland for just a daamn while & then back to wanru's hse.

i've seriously got nothing to say cos i don't wanna be seen as so affected by what has happened while you on the other hand, don't even care. i was just merely trying to cheer you up cos you were in a bad mood, uhh anything lah okay i don't wanna be seen as petty as well. whatever i say now will be seen as a pack of rubbish to you & will never mean anything. been telling myself to give up a million times but you shld know i couldn't. i've been feeling so fucking stressed already & whats more this must happen before nationals. given everything to you & got back nothing but hurt. i'm tired.

what we once had was lost in just the moment. for you, i'd race to get you back memories that you'd throw away ; i'd use all the time in this world to get your happiness back & i'd walk a thousand miles just to see your face. so much to say but choke whenever i tried to talk, girl i've no choice but to say goodbye. till we meet again.