I took the chance that I'm even at home for two whole days to really think back on how I was. & I'm starting to wonder why I took up this job why I choose to tire myself out just because I knew I'd be heartbroken I needed something to occupy myself why I choose this sport out of so many others & why, why did I allow you to break me.

There's nothing for me to expect except whats in there for me at work What're my plans for the next day When am I meeting up with friends I've not seen for ages How am I to manage my time. I really hate the idea of trying so hard just to be someone I'm not. Yknw many a time, you just feel like being happy, forgive & forget everything else. I did. But the minute I feel unfair, I give up trying to the point when I feel like telling them off. Just a state of confusion playing a bit of mind games & I'm through.

snap.