just to waste my time with you ;


marcella hurt her foot! so had lessons at the old gym there for first 4 periods & i realised p loves to dance when she teach, hahaha! mer was nice to me today :D cos she didn't want to do sth in the morning, so thats her damn punishment, haha. during chi, char asked how to say 'cig' in chinese, & i thought she said 'secret', so i answered her 'mi mi' & she was like 'funny ah' & i was quite surprised cos isn't secret 'mi mi'?! after like a few times i realised its cig, whalao damn idiot. then, played soccer after sch! (: with vinee, limsingh & fer. quite fun lah, haha. then, sat at bus stop a while & HOME!

i need new sch shoes by tmr cos my shoes are like beyond imagination & if i wear it tmr, it'll just split into two!


this time its for real, i'm giving up my heart to you. i'm not gonna care how it feels anymore, whether to wait or to give up, its up to it. you can do whatever you like with it, which i can somehow guess what you'll do, i don't give a damn anymore. blinded by love, describes it all. guess its all just, karma. sometimes, i really do hate this. i've given all my heart into this, & nothing but hurt in return. you don't have to be sorry for anything, i brought it upon myself & foolishly fell too deep. if you really want me to give up, please don't do anything & just open up. if only i was the luckiest person, that the person i love loves me back, but oh well, i'm not that lucky enough. i screwed everything up, i don't know how're you feeling, i'm not the one you need & worse of all, lead on is the best word to say. i hate myself for all these. i don't wanna see you so stressed anymore, i just wanna see you smile no matter who you're with at the end of the day. maybe someday down the road, we'll meet again. but till then, goodbye.

you're the greatest mistake i've never regretted making, never.
i wish you'd stay, but things can't always go my way.