& when the worrying starts to hurt,
& the graves feels like graves of dirt.

mum's back from m'sia & she bought me marshmallows :/ haven't been able to study & it just seems like smth's wrong. ugh.

anw, had church this morning. its been so long since i last went for mass, haha. rehearsal for first holy communion then town to meet priscilla (: got twin her present then chess & liwei came. chess bought smth for her too, then home (: stayed home the whole of sat & talked to pris :D she slept & when she woke up i fell asleep, haha.


so you stole my heart, & left me a ransom letter
demanding i treat you better
should i ever want it back & now i'm all alone.
dreams are all forgotten, memories all turned rotten
its not the same on the phone.

i wanted you to love me,

My wonderwall (:

i'm blending in so you won't even know me
apart from this whole world that shares my fate
i've been housing all this doubt,
insecurities
i've been locked inside the house
& while you hold the keys
i've been dying to get out
& that might be the death of me
& even though there's noway in knowing
where to go, promise i'm going because

i got to get out of here,
i'm afraid that this complacency is smth i can't shake it off
i got to get out of here,
& i'm begging you, i'm begging you
to be my escape (:


/pig (:

Ineloquence & anger,
are all we have

had lessons all the way to like 430 today & i was damnnn tired :/ played captain's ball with trackers & clique after that & it was like superr fun :D left with sophia & chess to tiong, chop chop (: then, chinatown to meet tootpig. went grocery shopping with her, omgosh. she's like so toot, don't even know what kinda things to buy :D oh, & sumay! we got you cokecokecoke, haha.

i shall get girlfriend hers next week :D

charlenegoh: MR POON!
mr poon: (ignore)
the grp of ppl: RIBENA!
mr poon: yes? ... WHAT DID YOU CALL ME?!

:D okay, just thought of that.


I tried to tell you before i left,
but i was screaming under my breath
You're the only thing that makes sense,
just ignore all this present tense.

Where'd you go
i miss you so,
seems like its been forever
that you've been gone, please come back home.


that tootface pig is such a liar! i don't watch L word like all the time lah, haha. ugh, don't feel like blogging anymore. bye.


when you come back i won't be here
& you can sing it,

A distant motorcade & suddenly there's joy,
the snow & tickertape blurs all my senses numb.
Its like the finishing line where everything just ends,
the crack of radios seems close enough to touch.

keep all these nice figures to yourself, i'm not taking any at all. benefits you gain, after all that seems like your trademark. i'm afraid i may not trust anymore, now its all because of you. since there's another who could make it up to you, i don't see a need for me to be here. headlights before me, so beautiful so clear. reach out & take it cos i'm so tired of all this fear.

let it burn,

I tear my heart open, i sew myself shut. My weaknesses is that i care too much.

Sorry, havent been blogging for a really long time cause i must admit that i've been spending my time watching L word & i cant take my eyes of it. Hahaha! I'm really a P-I-G, all i do is eat sleep study & shit. Most starting with 'S', thats why my good friend is called sophia. Haha! Anyway i'm going off to watch L word one more time :D Have a nice day man, goodbye! :D

Oh Priscilla, I know i've been really mean to you, i treat you hippy hoppy jelly anytime you want! Haha :D

Hahaahaha, okay lah, it's priscilla! :D I'm not so mean to not admit! (: I'm helping joy blog some stuff, so that it wont look so empty! Hurr, I'm still having flu! ): Hate it! D: Okay, goodbye! :D

you're pushing me out
when i'm wanting in,

studied at cathay with priscilla er! she was 20 mins late, & she just keeps claiming that she's only 10 mins late, hurr. studied at starbucks for a while then walked to cine to meet sumay & jo. walked to wisma, saw jiarui & cor then off for church (: sorry pig for making you wait there for one hour ): class was funny today i don't know why :D
teacher: what is ginseng?
sophia: a kind of root.
teacher: what kind of root lah?
sophia: ginseng! :D
okay, maybe it won't sound funny here but it was chao hilarious in class, haha. oh, i have no idea why ginseng was talked about in class! haha! anw, it just have smth to do with the lesson lah, haha. went off with priscilla & we stopped at penisular there & decided to walk to her house, haha. she took sooo long to eat one small pie lah :D i hate chinatown! as in, there were so many chee-ko-peks & trans & weird ppl who smokes with the cig in the other way & it was just weird lah, hurr :/ took blank cds from her then home (:

now i find that you've changed your mind
i'm lost for words
& everything i feel for you
i wrote down on one piece of paper.
the one in your hand,
you won't understand
how much it hurts to let you go.

sweet heart throb ;

town with sophia & chess, hong kong cafe then to starbucks to sit. met priscilla at newton & went to her dental together (: she's so super toot to the extend cos she don't even know that sept 11 was the terrorist attacks & she thought that the world trade centre building itself was unstable so it collapse! :D oh man, she's so funny haha! & she gets high VERY easily! haha! she took quite a while to like cool herself down, haha. & her braces colour is like purple & blue! :D so cool lah, haha. home after that cos it was going to rain :/

i guess that'll be just fine,

nobody warned me about your smile,


i can't play 02jam! ): damn shit.

did one passage of compre this morning :D talked to pig & i got giddy :/ haha. supposed to be chaos outing today but, sophia laura & vinee couldn't make it. met girlfriend at suntec (: sumay celine & kelly came after that. watched devil wears prada, haha. walked to candy empire then esplanade & went rooftop. oh, & we saw this kinda mad woman who starts doing taichi by herself & singing wang bu liao, haha! :D anw, marina square after that then home (:

priscilla er, don't so xiao qi okay! (: 50 songs, promise!

angels brought me here (:

seal up the joys with a goodbye,

i got woken up 3 times this morning & i guess thats what caused me the headache :/ first & second call was by priscilla er & the other one was sophialee, haha.

anw, sch for chem lessons then town to meet chess :D she left her phone at yoshi & i took it for her secretly. she only realised it was missing after 15 mins, haha! her reaction was hilarious. far east to wait for p r i s c i l l a then back to cine. took bus with her to chinatown then home (:

i'm dreading sch, if only holidays are longer ): chaos outing tmr & i'm sorry i'm only joining your halfway :/


we tend to take certain things for granted when we have the hold of it, & only then will we find the importance of it when its gone.

in your eyes, i found the greatest prize
you & i could not be closer.

i'm not here to say i'm sorry,


had chinese orals today & it was kinda awesome man, haha. got the same teacher again, & i rmb the last time she gave me a borederline pass :/ anw, i think conversations with the teacher is hilarious :D i just can't maintain whatever eye contact with her lah, haha. went girlfriend's hse then over to mine for a while (:

met sumay priscilla chuyin & liying in town after that. watched reincarnation & i almost fell asleep :D i think 02jam's so fun, haha! food republic for lunch then chuyin & liying & priscilla left i think, haha. i forgot what we did! but we met sihui kim mer & zhixian at tcc. waited for xinni then went level9 again, haha. watched boo i think, wanru & i were like playing 02jam :D i think boo's scary, haha. oh yeah, happy birthday xinni (: home after that.

there's chem lesson tmr again, ugh. & i think my mother's weird, she keep taking my phone to call & msg some unknown person lah :/

thanks girlfriend for telling me everything last night (: i'm shocked on how i'm able to take it so easy & not get affected, haha. love you!

& maybe this way would be better for you, me as well? maybe some things are meant not to be said & understood no matter how much you tend to be thinking about it. when you love someone without any conditions, that may be when you really love her.

& the reason is you,

the shoes stink ):

had bio & chem lessons today & it was all on prac, hurr. bio's prac was awesome cos i don't even understand what on earth are we doing, haha. chem prac was fun :D sophia made me high & i can't rmb for what reason, haha!

esplanade after that with twin & we walked all around esplanade just to look for my bus stop to town :/ haha. then, met priscilla chuyin & liying. liying was being sooo irritating, ugh! & she took so many spastic pictures of - lah, hurr. level 9 to watch this i know what you did last night/summer? i can't rmb the name but i think its summer, haha. chuyin & i were like trying to sneak in to the room & avoiding the security guards when in the end, we can actually just walk in with sch-u, wtf! saw girlfriend sihui bel nobel & fer in the next room :D wha nobellafruitella, not bad what :D chuyin & liying left then we walked to paragon (:

i closed my eyes to walk & that stupid pig was supposed to guide me, haha. it was so hilarious lah. then walked alll the way to ps to kill time :/ sat at ljs for a while then home (:

orals tmr, hurr. better read with all the high pitch at the right time if not it'll turn out like eng & i'll just die :/

because you live (:

okay, didn't go out for the whole of yesterday ): hurr. i don't seem to feel full no matter how much i stuff myself with food :D

my blog's like, quite unfinished & plus there's no more title :/

Joy's an idiot! :D:D:D:D

closer to me reminds me of ______.
rmbering the times spent together & the hei se mao yi. sweet msges sent without fail everyday & just everything, oh man. so funny how time passes so fast that, come to think of it i was insane :D

i hate it when night comes, cos then i'll start thinking of unnecessary stuffs, damn.

i'm stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake,

today feels like saturday :D & the hols are so short, plus orals & stuff :/

anw, out with priscilla just now haha. wanted to stay at home but decided not to. met her at ps, arcade then cathay's ben & jerry's to study (: oh, & we saw this woman who can squeeze into a super huge balloon & she started stripping inside :D pig was like saying the guys there had a free show :/ studied just a bit & she got restless & all. whats new lah huh, haha. chem's killing my brain cells! ): walked to cine then heeren then topman! (: & we got high on the way there, i forgot about what, haha! priscilla started talking in the damn cool ahlian style, & i think she suits to be one of them huh :D bought a shirt, then taka to eat. i hate to eat when there's a damn ulcer in my mouth, ugh! met michwong & her friend for a while then, home (:

while tracing back, i got mislead.