seriously i don't know what the fuck is your problem, you wanna go believe then go for all i care. i'm telling you this, since you don't give a damn, i won't as well.

i just can't love you anymore,


i don't want syf tmr! ):

anw, just came back from town with wanru rachel maple twin chess & novelyn! :D

i don't know why but i'm always losing my place to ____. you jolly well know i want the position sooo daaaamn much & you keep complaining abt how much you don't want it & what happen in the end? you just suddenly came back & took it away. i don't fucking care, we haven't had a real fair competition, i'll never lose to you. i'll NEVER want to lose to you, ugh! twice already lah, what you want?

time is running out, for me


i just called twin, but she didn't pick up! ):

anw, didn't go sch today. (: wanted to go cos of her, but i realise i'm feeling daaaamn giddy. ): ytd was the worst day ever in sch! went for bio first period, wanted to die straight away in the daaamn lab lah. after that, went sick bay for the rest of the day. & kelly came as well cos she got cramps! :D slept for daamn long there & went off at ard 12 plus to see doc. ): i don't know why but the injection is daamn pain, hurr. ):

I MISS EVERYONE IN SCH! HURR. ): ESP YOU YOU YOU!

DING I MISS YOU TOO! HURRY REPLY ME! (:

i don't wanna have to feel this way, to think abt you all the time. its killing me & you don't even care. as much as i don't want to, i guess i've to give up now. i don't wanna be seen as someone who's hogging onto your life, i just wanna see you happy. if me giving up is the best choice, let me know? cos right now i'm really confused.

i know its the crucial period for you now, i don't expect much though. just tell me how're you feeling?


don't look back on yesterday,
cos that time has been & gone.

all i can say is, i love you


out with twin sumay maple vinee & jo today! (: twin's daaaamn nice i tell you, she BAKED me cookies! hahaha. not everyone got it okay (: & she came all the way from tampines to town to pass me that, honoured haha. went lvl 9 play x box again! but they watched the wig & sumay & i played cs cos maple don't know how to play halo2! :D twin & vinee left. then, watched just my luck. (: the show's quite nice lah, haha.

dingding! don't so affected lah! at least i didn't push you away! (:

& jo's being so irritating cos she don't believe that i've changed. jo, if tonight rains, means i lied to you. (:

i've got crying tofu man! hahaha. :D its cute & at first i thought it was broken cos part of the head is cut off but i realised its actually on its hand. :/

stupid's ignoring me now & i think we're starting to not talk. ):

sun-fun-shine-fine, imissyou.

i want to but didn't have the chance,


supposed to have clique outing today but only sumay wanru sophia celine & laura came. watched scary movie 4 with sumay wanru & twin. (: the show lasted for only 1hr15mins & its not as funny as i thought it'd be, hurr. played time crisis & i think we passed again! haha. walk over to taka to meet celine & laura. ate at crystal jade & had some talking session there again, haha. they reminded me of some stuffs, i don't know if i shld be happy or not damn it. celine left, then went cine lvl 9 AGAIN. sihui & nobel came as well. they watched emily rose, haha. after that, played pool with sumay! :D & i think i'm kinda not on form today & lost to her! ): nvm, my 2 marche treats are still on! :D left at around 11. (:

dingding dongdong! :D


i'm clear minded, all i want is You.

everynight i taste the purest of pain,


okay, i'm talking to char online now & its the first time i'm talking to her online since the day i know her. how long can it be lah, hahaha. i miss her 'DAMN YOU!' in the daaaamn high tone! :D

uhh, okay wasn't feeling quite good cos of the fucking cramps in the morning. daamn it. agreed to meet up with girlfriend & king of bung already, so met them at suntec. was reading 'today' & wanru almost couldn't recognise me! hahaha! went arcade then sumay & madcow came. (: there's this car display thing there again, haha. we went into this car then sumay press the horn, whalao malu like shit can! haha. twin came after that! :D bel too. oh, & we went toys'r us to play skate board, haha. sumay made a fool out of herself, she always do. (: uhh, forgot what we did but later sumay & i cabbed to town. WE FINALLY COMPLETED TIME CRISIS! whalao, it took us like so long! :D went lvl 9 again, & this time we played cs! (: my cramps was annoying me the whole day. ): then, met jo & lyanne. lyanne was irritating me like nobody's business! ugh, haha. press press lyanne! :D then, played pool with king of bung again, haha. she SUCK today & i ROCK! hahahaha. sumay, stripes kinda give you bad luck today huh, hahaha. 5-1, nice score. (: then, home with her.

oh, & & owen's fucking injured! damn it, hurr. ):

char is irritating me like noone's business! YOU WAIT!


i suddenly thought of that time going twin's hse to play playstation & the wrestling game. hahahaha. bras & panties & fifa, daaamn fun. :D


are we really going back to stage one?

be true to yourself & follow your heart.


(taken frm stupid's blog)

sunshine


had orals today & i'm bound to fail big time! daaaamn it okay, i was reading the passage so monotone & ms koh was like asking if i had enough rest last night, wth! & i couldn't even explain the picture properly cos she keeps asking me bloody questions, ugh. ):

went tiong with sumay, kelly & twin after that. slacked around at ljs, made some disgusting drink & was intending to give it to wanru. then, she came with vinee & vinee drank it! cool ass lah, hahaha! :D went town, lvl 9 cine again. (: watched saw 2, its so daaaamn gruesome & fucking gross! was playing cs at first, haha. oh, & i finally know how justin look like, hahaha! & the neo shop there is quite funny cos they allow you to borrow funny looking clothes to wear then take prints. :D pictures will be up at either wanru or sumay or vinee's blog, i think haha. then, sent twin off & went somewhr to eat. (: gossip session with them is fun, haha. i finally went to the new cathay, i just like the lift there. :/

sorry stupid for not meeting today.


its not that i don't wanna talk to you but everytime there seems to be no reply.
can we proceed further?

still waiting for the one that feels right


syf totally sucked & its a daaaamn bloody waste of time.


sometimes all you need is to settle down & everything'll be fine. since everyone's waiting & all prepared, you just need to set your mind to it. its all in the mind, stopping you from going for whatever you want. follow your heart, thats all i can say. i know you don't mean of ppl to feel this way but look, its unavoidable. i'll never get what i want, fuck it.


i just wanna say it straight from my heart,
i miss you.

still waiting for the one that feels right


syf totally sucked & its a daaaamn bloody waste of time.


sometimes all you need is to settle down & everything'll be fine. since everyone's waiting & all prepared, you just need to set your mind to it. its all in the mind, stopping you from going for whatever you want. follow your heart, thats all i can say. i know you don't mean of ppl to feel this way but look,

& when everything falls, all you need is one


out with sumay jo & lyanne ytd again! (: played time crisis again but we still can't pass, how suay! ): played x box at level 9, halo 2. sumay & i make best team, hahaha. jo how could you call me a loser! :D ate at youth park there then went ps to support the netballers. but their match's at 1240. played monkey with vinee & sumay! (: jo & lyannes' bladders all got problem, keep going to the toilet, maybe they love the toilet bowl too much. :D played house of dead 4 again! sumay! eveytime we touch! :DD drank a bit cos of nationals, hurr. ): went home ard 10 plus? haha.

didn't meant for all these to happen, guess its all fated.
i hate to say goodbye.

i gave my best to you,


uhh, meeting sumay jo & lyanne later. i'm superly broke & i'm supposed to get tulips for someone! damn it, whr in the world to get tulips, hahaha. so ytd, met wanru, rachel, sumay, maple, zhixian & kimberley. just got to know maple & kim. (: they left for shopping then we went far east ljs. i'll never wanna go far east before going home cos i don't know how to go home from there! ):


i'm sorry i didn't mean to call but i couldn't fight it
i guess i was weak & couldn't even hide it
& so i surrender just to hear your voice
i know how many times i said i'm gonna live without you
& maybe someone else out there is beside you
but there's something you need to know
that deep inside i feel like i'm dying
i have to see you, its all i'm asking for.

i knew that this was right,


met sumay, jo & lyanne at town today! (: juli came as well & we headed to cine level 9 play x box! won sumay for the first game but the second game suck to the damn core lah okay, haha!
& sumay saw her EYECANDY again! how fated can she get, haha. walked around, played a few rounds of arcade then jo & lyanna left! after that, went to pick wanru then head to steamboat! :D realised we three can really talk alot. (: & the arcade there is cool shit cos there's house of dead 4 & its not as crowded as the one at ps, haha. then, walked allll the way back to mrt & it took us almost half an hour. ):


guess i'm shutting out, closing the door behind me
though this didn't work out,
you'll always be a part of me.
i've given everything, but you threw it all away.

i'm giving up, giving up slowly.

drained.

from the moment i met you,


i will never wanna lose this feeling
i don't wanna spend a moment apart,
cos you bring out the best in me
like no one else will do
thats why i'm by your side ;
thats why i love you

follow my heart, to continue waiting.
i'm worn out, starting to not feel anymore
what mess, you've got the best of my heart
it broke & now its just a joke
cos you're moving right along
i'm still here & you're gone

i think i need some time by myself
without anybody else
i need to go far away, a few months back would be okay
i just need to unwind in my time machine.


i miss chaos :/ kelly celine vinee where are your?!
i miss mummy. ):
& i miss you.

its been so long
since i last saw your face.
you've been keeping it tight
& everything appears to be in its proper place
reminiscing, i'm hoping for a little old times
can you stay?


even if i happen to disappear now
you'll never find something missing in your life.
fuck this place.

its such a shame, we're worlds apart,


met sumay at around 2 plus. (: walked to monstercue & we had 7 games, haha! sumay kept getting stripes & she was wearing stripes today! :D okay, shall not say anything about the daaaamn scores, haha. after that, walked back to cine & we decided to play arcade! & i almost passed stage 3 for time crisis, MARCHE!! ugh. ): then, wanru came & they were sooo irritating! haha. booked room at level 9 to watch 'the maid'. they were damn funny, kept singing their own songs damn loudly cos they're scared! haha! after that, home. :D think i'm too getting used to going out everyday, haha.


get over & done with, i guess i'll be fine.
all these might just be a lie, & i've been fooled.

no enactment needed,
mine's an example.

i'm not who i used to be


when i hear your voice, i start to tremble. i can't keep up with the pace, you seem so far away.
i don't know what you're thinking anymore, i want things back like how it used to be but i doubt it. now, as i sit at the corner & reminisce of the past, i teared knowing that they'll only remain as memories & will never happen again. i'm sorry to have brought you nothing but stress in the past & i shldn't have fallen so deeply in the first place. you're not to blame except myself, as i slowly take my leave knowing you're happy now.

what can i do to make you mine, fallen so hard so fast this time.
what did i say, what did you do. everything's changed, we never knew
how did i fall in love with You.

sometimes i just felt i could give up,
i can't help but break down & cry

i'm too used to your ignorance, such that i'm starting to feel numb.

so where's the road to take us back


beyond that silence, you created a beautiful sound in my heart.
being in love is like going on a battlefield,
injuries are unavoidable & its either you win or lose
i guess i'm losing way too badly.

everything just ain't right
without you in my life.

fighting to keep on track


had to wake up SUPER early for trng today lah. ): all rachel's fault for forcing me to go, heh. i was kinda quite bored cos chuyin didn't come & i had to do the workout myself, hurr. ):

after that, went home to get changed & met wanru & rachelsng in town. (: walked to cine to watch omen. played arcade before that & saw leisha they all, haha. girlfriend is the BEST lah, screeeamed OH MY GOD so daaamn loudly during the movie & whalao, the whole theatre was laughing at her! :D she scaaared the hell out of me lah, haha. i hate shocking movies. ): & the movie is damn stressful! ): then, walked to ps play arcade again, haha. girlfriend is nice cos she bought me candy floss that makes my tongue looks disgustingly PINK! UGH! ): uhh, met gerri for a while cos she wanted to show me her HANDSOME look. (: haha. & she looks handsome lah. :D accompanied her to city hall then home. (:

i guess i'm rather happy today. (:


you said to watch sunset with me someday! (:

Its the hardest thing i'll ever have to do


girlfriend is back! :D

out with airen & madcow & psychic today! (: supposed to go ps play drums but they lazy walk there, hurr. ): liwei joined us later. ate at subway & then went heeren to sit around, & they turn out piercing ears together! :D oh ya, played arcade with liwei. (: then, went airport ard 6 plus. ate at swensens & the service there is daaamn sloww! stupid. oh, & weiling can view stupid on webcam! haha, heard her calling my name though. (: okay, nothing much to blog about already lah.


as much as i want to, i can't stay.
my heart is breaking with every word i'm saying, but i guess you'll be happier this way.
people come from different walks of life, some can take the pain & move on while others can't
& i'm one of those who can't. guess i've fallen too hard this time.
take care my one & only sunshine, i've yet to watch the sunset with you though. ):

There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the times when we were happy.


okay, out with cor & jiarui just now! :D we had nothing to do cos jiarui didn't wanna look for her damn presents so, decided to play pool. (: played three games & i won twice! haha. then, walk aall the way back to cine arcade. ALL COR'S FAULT! (: & she ddr-ed with sasha! haha! played house of the dead & saw louisa & vanessa they all. oh man, i'm feeling so embarrassed now, hurrr. ): hope louisa won't anyhow think, daamn. sat outside cheers & cor wanted to wear my shirt! daamn her cos i've to walk ard in some translucent shirt! ): oh, & we became BROTHERS! :DD & we got really high man, haha. then, sat at rocky's for a while & waited for someone to come out of cine but she didn't. ): sigh, nvm.

supposed to meet cor & jiarui today, again. BUT, they can't make it last min! ugh! ):


now & forever, i'll be your man. (:

baby goodbye ;


i seriously have no fucking idea to why am i still hanging here. & all these times, not a single time you even cared. how do you deal, when you have a million suitors out there waiting for you? do you happily knock each of them down? or do you try to find someone you really love in there? search into your heart, find the one you really love & treasure her. it really sucks to get hurt time & time & at the end of the day, you can only feel hurt, not love. life's unfair, you don't get what you want & never will you. maybe it just applies to me, god damnit. you knocked 4 down already, anymore?

i guess something's true all along, you won't know what you've got till its gone. & it takes just a sec to fall in love with you, but a lifetime or maybe never to get over you.

no wonder you kept singing 'just want you to know'.




UGH!

cos i want it all or nothing at all


finally saw stupid yesterday after sooo long! (: trng was tough enough & she had to make me jog 50m & run 150m with her, hurrr. ): watched her train all by herself then went home. she's as blur as i don't know what cos she forgot to feed tory & tory died! :D anw, its gonna die sooner or later, haha. & i realised i can't train with rachel anne around, heh. when i look at her, i'll feel like laughing & i'll end up looking like i'm laughing to myself! ALL HER FAULT!

went hospital this morning. ): waited for 1 hour plus & almost fell asleep, haha. luckily i didn't go alone. after that, went my mum's office. the doc is sooo nice! :D my m o t h e r was complaining to her abt me being so boyish for i don't know what reason & the doc helped me! (: she rock okay.
mum: look at her, so boyish. don't know what to do with her also
doc: huh, thats normal what. its just a stage of life where they'll be experiencing & after some time, they'll grow out of it. don't worry lah.
mum: joy, so now i know you love dr fong alot right?
joy: YEAH, OF COURSE! :D
okay, there's alot more lah, but i lazy type, haha. went home to change, then met psychic at bugis. went all the way to sophia's house & i ate alot! ): played playstation & there's this wrestling game 'bras & panties'! :DD daaamn funny cos you've to strip the person then you'll win, haha! :D i won sophia & she was being an idiot. (: watched the shutter & psychic was so scaared to look at the corpse, haha! then went town to meet stupid. she's really stupid & she wanted to leave me at ps ALONE cos her church friends were at SWENSENS?! like they can even see her walking around, hurrr! & she's daaamn light that she'll fly if i pull her harder, haha.


since the day i met you, i knew that you're the one i've been looking for. there's not one day you're not on my mind & your memories are haunting me. i'll wait no matter how long, but i guess my stand doesn't matter cos the decision still lies in you.

& take care stupid! have fun at aust. (:

if only time could bring us back ;


uhh, back from sports camp! (: its fun but tiring, hurr. & don't ever play badminton with rachel anne preece! you'll just end up rolling on the floor & laughing your head off. she's retarded i swear! :D she makes me happy! haha. second night was fun (: we did a skit & i hafta act as mr leslie. how cool can it get, haha. & rachel couldn't sleep & a moth just hafta land on her stupid hand which cause her to lose her sleep totally.
joy: goodnight rachel!
rachel: NO! GOOD MORNING!
so, i accompanied her till 1 then i slept. (: then, next morning all of us couldn't open our eyes, haha. & we hafta jog 6 rounds on the track. dumb shit.then, at ard 5 plus, dismissal! (:
waited for sihui then went wanru's house cos sihui wanted to bathe. stupid. in the end, didn't send wanru off. we met mer for dinner at oscar's! (: then, home. haha.


ytd: met psychic at town. town was crowded shit lah, haha. saw gracialoo! (: went fareast then waited for leisha. met gerri for a while then off to cine, haha. sat at pasta for nothing & stared at the tables like some idiots. haha. all psychic's fault. :D then, leisha wanted to eat at heeren. psychic was abt to slaughter us man. haha. met jo & lyanne at wisma. they're so eww eww! :D esp jo cos she claims she's got an eww eww son, guess who. HURR! left town ard 10 plus. (:

& i'm going her church w i t h m y m o t h e r l a t e r! )): she's so gonna complain alot again. stupid.

& oh! catching she's the man on tues with stupid& louisa! :D & cor better make it with twin too! (:


captured the way we were.

cos You bring out the best in me


okay, just got back from townn.): i don't really feel like coming home cos its so boring! hurrr. uhh, went gerri's church this afternoon with my m o t h e r.(: its kinda quite nice cos its like opened air! haha. i just like the air con lah, haha. went there to see some baptism then took cab to novena church. i'm feeling so holy man, keep going churches today. haha! accompanied my mother walk around the church & i didn't know that priests cannot be married & they stays at the church, haha. left for town to meet sihui & mer after that. (: sihui's really kinda lame okay & she told me to snatch the lady's ice cream & not let her eat. wth! haha. & she just don't wanna walk me to lido, hurrr! ):

& twin's coming back today! :D but, i don't know what time. stupid twin, haha. can't wait to see her man, so much stuffs to tell her! haha. & she better come back with food for me or else i'll slaughter her. (:

oh, there was this band performance thing at youth park just now. it somehow reminded me of that time gerri, psychic & i watched some performance at esplanade. ah, whatever. ):

stupid is finally back from all her camps! :D but, she's going off again. no wonder she's stupid. (:


everything thats good in me i owe to you
i need you so so much. ):