This is getting no where, drifted & far.
Maybe we've come to a point,
we mark it down.
& I'm not proud to declare it.


day out with the clique yesterday. was great but my foul mood spoilt my day. watched "dead silence" then walked around. everyone left one by one Chess came to pick Sophia up then we headed to Crystal Jade they had dinner I talked. home after & headed to bed at 9 plus.
thanks Celine, she's so cute she msged me to ask if I'm okay haha.

Never thought things would turn out this way
I'm too tired to cry hoping for things to be better.
nothing good comes easily.

bye, take care!

Funny how I dreamt you'd still be standing by.

there's nothing left of me
to say that I miss you.

I'm soooooo tired ): in both sense. oh well, nothing beats going through the same old thing everyday. guess I'm heading to Ikea after papers tomorrow. my auntie pronounces Ikea as "I"kea, haha! okay whatever. goodnight.

now, this is what I call playing with the wrong cards.

I belong to Mars.

My cousin's like back again she's so preeeeetty but no, not near perfection.
yesterday, stayed home to study then out to uncle's place for bbq. I have pictures of dearest mummy in a swimming costume haha! seeing the mothers gather together & talking like no one's business, I feel they don't communicate but take turns to talk instead. they remind me of the JLC haha. started drizzling so we went back to his place. played In Between again then out to catch a midnight movie. there wasn't Rush Hour 3 so settled with Evan Almighty. its something like Bruce Almighty boring & so predictable I almost fall asleep in there if not for the coke -.- back to the house then home at 230am.

today, tea garden Macs to study with Sammmmmm & just got home. I'm home alone cause they all went for dinner but too bad I have papers tomorrow, ugh. okay back to the books nowwwwww.

Even while you were away,
your heart strayed.

I can't cry hard enough,
enough for you to see.

its the second time, I'm getting at it soon.

thankyou Sophia & Chess for today sorry to have made your walk miles everywhere. pasta soon! :D okay gotta meet girlfriend nowww (: maybe nobel toooooo! pool & arcade, something I've missed for quite a while haha.

For you I will fly, at least I would try.
For you I'll take the Last Flight Out.


this place is so dead, there's no pictures just words, words & more words. I just did June maths paper, I can die panicking cause I have many question marks in my head. there's Lit tomorrow, yay cause I've got a tiny question. how tiny can a question get? haha. okay rubbish. goodnight.


enough of the insane mind,
I'm going.

I didn't mean to...

fireworks was pretty but didn't had the mood to watch. okay I'm lazy to type about anything right now. so goodnight & I'll be off to bury my head.

sorry if this is a mistake, take care.

Down, down, down.

more like just hanging.

the day you ask me out will be once in a million years.
thats how we're going.

3 fucking hours, so fun (:

Girl you shine.

there's actually many things I wanted to blog but now, I forgot everything :/ school was alright, gf's place after that. she slept & I studied JLC. talked then watched tv (: she got scared of the actress in the show cause she's so freaky & when I was walking back into her room she screaaaamed cause she don't wanna be alone, haha! home after the show.

I could have collected my phone today ):

you don't know me anymore,

Hold on the wheel & drive.

Eng orals suck ): the examiner totally laughed at me cause I don't know what the "toot" is in the plastic bag in the picture lah! whalaoooooo ): both EL & CL's conversations are on Sports, thats good, haha. BUT, they asked about society too like wth? I answered & he give me that sarcastic kinda look :/ aiya its over so No thinking about it Joy (:

My brother should shoot himself. he borrowed chings yesterday & said he would return double today but now he said later at night when he's home he'll pass it to me. like, he'll never return! hurr okay nvm about that. softball today was fun but PAINFUL! I was called a stupid girl, yes thankyou, not. played against 4E during recess, haha I can bat but can't catch the ball :/ so we lost when we were catchers, haha. & I got hit by the ball on my forehead & a sensitive part at the chest area, HAHA! okay, that aside. one side of my earpiece is spoilt & I can't listen good music, hurr badddd ): today kinda sucked haha.

fireworks & collect my phone this Sat.

but, its such a pity you couldn't see through me.

your smell's so defined.


I just sent my phone for servicing & all messages will be gone ): good & bad, hurr. mummy's not nice enough to lend me hers, at least hers is working better than my other phone, haha. oh well. eng orals tmr! hopefully it'll be smth like about toys & food, haha!
went st. Ignatius with Joyceh Maria & Nicolette. first time I hear taiJoyceh going to a church haha. sat at hawker centre to just to watch the 7pm show -.- home afterrrrrr.

if only you'd know,
that I've seen through you.

Greatest story ever told,

Hi world, I'm currently into emo shit songs, care to join?
felt like I haven't invaded into that folder for a long time, :/

haven't been eating much these two days, even soup spoon didn't manage to tempt me ): still contemplating if I should go school tmr, ): I love Mer for listening to all my craps today before lesson (: she gave me breakfast cause I gave her half of mine yesterday, haha. I love gf too for being there for me haha, sama sama bung :D


The way you keep pretending is such a crime,
you gotta give me whats mine.
Your pretty face is not enough,
behind your eyes, I know you're lying.

I'm never gonna make it known,
how much you meant.


staying home seriously gives me headaches cause I tend to sleep 2 precious hours away & wake up in a haste receiving calls from unknowns to the house fearing it might be her. Why do I even do this for, madness. & staying home also means being a slave. can't wait for school tmr, but at the same time dreading cause of results. I don't even know if results are out tmr. I want to buy my cardigan, Claud I'm not doing mouth action again okay I'm getting it! ha. sorry for not accompanying you this afternoon.

In the midst of everybody getting all busy with their personal affairs, I'm starting to lose a swell bunch of friends. Exams are coming, study hard!

goodbye, studying rocks my nose.
wth?

That familiar face sinks into my memory.

I just lost, faith.

Hi family, your have successfully made me feel worse than I already am. yes this may be history, but no I've seen this happening far too many times. okay no one understands & no one will ever do.

)': bye world.

Baby girl.

My day was better after I left my house. was studying at home then left to meet Claud in town. got my blouse for grad day, haha Claud, no mouth action only okay! back to Cine, she pierced her ears. omg she was damn scared hahaha! arcade then went for usual long walks along the streets in town, like what else can we do haha no life, yeah. back to Cine & saw her classmates. Mark's good looking, wahaha. chatted for a while outside Cheers then gf came (: Gerri came after a while, like princess lah take so long, haha. basically did nothing then went outside LJS to sit & talk haha! gf & I left to heeren & we talked alot, like about everything. Love you, gf!

sometimes people tend to take a certain someone for granted. or rather, put it in a bad manner, use her. it just makes me confused, what are friends for? are they just there for you to use them when you have nothing left, talk to them as & when you like it, treats them good ONLY when you're in a good mood, contact them ONLY when you feel alone? I guess that wasn't what I use to think of it as it is. once was enough, twice just made me feel sick. I'm just hoping you'd change, but not expecting much difference in you though. someday you'll think back & realise how your attitude totally irks people & how everyone who Was close to you is slowly distancing themselves from you. you may think everyone's being unreasonable each time we feel irritated but have you ever questioned yourself what kinda attitude you're showing each time things don't go your way. I was there for you whenever things get complicated at your side, but I guess I don't really matter after you get things back on track again, am I wrong to say this? & there's this other person who's not exactly very different from you, shall not delve into it much. just so you know, I'm not the only one who's feeling this way. whether you know this is for you or not, I just hope that that particular someone's senses will come round one fine day. life doesn't only revolve round your own personal world or rather your "love world", friends are Equally important, at least to me. I'm not speaking bad about you or whatever you may think here, just saying how I'm seeing things as it is & how everyone's been feeling about you too. think about it, you.

gf, its great at least I know how you're feeling & stuff. its good being straightforward sometimes haha. I'm glad things between us didn't really change after all, I miss watching every single horror movie with you & all the craps we do ): lets hope things will never change, cause you're one I'll never let go. love you much, bestest girlfriend (:

Here in my heart.

Hi, going out with Joyceh & Pris is like super laugh non-stop hits kind? hahaha. anw, went Marina area today & we were considered late already cause delay here & there at my place haha. the place is like damn crowded omg I wanted to faint & the food is like day light robbery please. sat for a while then Joyceh was tired so decided to head home. this year's NDP is so boring I fell asleep while watching, haha. okay goodnight people. this post is random but oh well, cause I'm bored.

): & I miss you more each day.

I will be around.

IMISSYOU! )': she just texted but I can't reply & this sucks ): rahhhhhhhhh.

Joyceh & Pris are like next to me reading all my stuffs -.-" yay talked alot & stuff haha. anw, out to Vivo with the both of them & I was actually their "maid" ?! looked around then headed to town to look for white blouses. applause to me cause I found one at G2000 (: I'm still contemplating if I should get it, but soon if I want to cause it may sell out soon, hurr. sat at McCafe, talked to taiJoycelynn for quite a while then far east then omg, we saw Steven Lim, hahaha! we thought of the "you suck you suck" thing. but he really suck cause he's fucking gay. bused home at 9 then Pris came over after a while.

I want ColdRock ):

My mind's in a whole mess,

Joycelynn if you're reading this, please cheer up cause its not worth any of your tiny brain cells to think of whoever it is. change your night emo moods lah, love you taiJoyceh! (:


not, not good enough
but just the perfect girl for me?

I'm gonna feel so empty & rahhh for the next 4 days )': shoot me so I'll feel better.

CelineSophiaSumayWanruVineeKellyLaura, all these people are the best but somehow someway we tend to not know whats going on in each other's life anymore so once in a while we gotta meet up, yeah. life revolves round people in your lives, people not person.

Photogenic eyes,


I wish I could say all thats bothering me cause times like this really suck ): people say some things are better left unsaid, I won't say I disagree. take care, you.

I'm bored & yay Joyce & Pris are staying over tmr at least something to look forward to & my irritating ass of a brother won't be at home! good thing. okay goodnight.

keep the apologies,
smash the boundaries,
let me love you.

Wan an, SB.

your kiss, your pretty smile you know I'd die for.


lately has been real bad, to a point where I'm starting to feel insignificant to anyone.

out to study with Joycelynn Pris Sarah & Lei today. thankyou Sarah for being there the whole 1 hour plus listening to all my craps & rants (: no fireworks today, good? bad? ha dumb. went to raflles city for subway then to town then home.

its been a rollercoater ride for a long long time. I tend to feel I'm a good for nothing just like what everyone thinks. even when I open up, no effort's made. & when I keep it to myself, quarrels happen. can you please tell me what you want me to do?

Excuse my French,


school today was alright, just a little more interesting cause there's mission. I hate balloons but well I blew 2 today, haha. home to change after school then to town to meet Trico & Jo (: Charleeene & Clara joined a while & met Gerri for a very short while. left with Jo to taka, walk for damnnnn long then back to Cine then here & there. haha we got 5th for photohunt! :D home at 10 plus ): Jo, you better find a nicer ring hahaha. sorry I didn't really do much to cheer you up but I promise a better plan for next week haha. loves.

tmr tmr tmr, study again ): I need to finish SS by tmr or I'll seriously have no time, hurr. You suck.


Why not just say I'm good for nothing,

Big Girls Don't Cry,

I think my blog's rather dead & boring, there's no pictures!

anw, SWR & LT's birthday just passed.
on Sunday, gave gf her surprise meet. haha we asked strangers to give her roses Level 9 & watched aquamarine. supposedly rented the show so that the room'll not be too quiet, all ended up watching it & kinda wanted to continue cause the show got cut off halfway ): fish & co for dinner talked & all, then home at 10plus (:

yesterday, Laura's 16th. school & stuff then over to gf's place to change with Sophia haha its been long since we had such good times together, hmm. headed to town, Claud came a while then left. Kelly came then cabbed to Wild Rocket. we waited for the rest for an hour plus so while waiting, we totally took many pictures & yeah I shall post them up soon. the food's not bad. walked out with wanru & sophia the place's so deserted & everywhere has Sophia's name haha. bused home & they totally walked from peace centre to ps cause there wasn't any cabs on the way haha.

thankyou for the HSM :D so much for Burning your fingers, hahaha. <3>