Don't stray, don't ever go away ):


My fucking msn's got prob, all thanks the charleeeene & I'm stupid enough to click that, Ughhhhhhh )): so I guess I won't be online this few days.

Today was actually great, until I came home & saw -. rahhhhh, shoot me Now. & I still don't know where to go this Friday, hurrr. didn't train today, cause of what reason I have no idea too. NationalJuniors coming soooon (:


Get over it,

Where did i go wrong, i lost a friend.


Hi, I don't really feel like blogging so yeah. My mum's asking me to stay out on friday night at someone else's place, i have no where to go lahhh. booo, I think I'll settle at Nsm's place (:

friend : " eh i realise you always end up in a one way relationship, why like that! "

fucked up bitch, i swear. get your fucking confusion cleared & make up your damn mind. i didn't really wanna bother about whatever shit you do but i Have to. omg things have been BAD for me these few days esp a 'friend' that totally said i'm insensitive & talk without using my brains. thanks alot, like really. thank you for letting me know what friends are for. i mean i'm not saying this just cause of that, other reasons too lah whatever.

heats today & thank God my timing was alright (: town after with sumay chuyin & novelyn. arcade again then home like kinda early ): i mean, its a Friday night.


I'm really tired, like drained though its only been a short while. I hate having to watch you & her, sorry if you don't like it. I don't wish for these to happen too. bye

look in your eyes i see a new story,
I can't deny my past ain't perfect too.
Singing, I'm not here to give false answers
but just like you I've got true questions too.

I wanted you to go your way,
I wanted me to go mine
I never thought you'd say Baby Goodbye.


I looked in your eyes then i said
Baby i loved all the time that we spent.
Then you replied with a tear in the eye
it should come to an end then we'll both be friends.
Both shed tears then we sat for a while,
that stone cold feeling putting on a smile.
Through a new doorway to a next line,
cause you've gone your way & I'll go mine.
You know I'll still see your face though we've been apart,
I know you got your place Deep in my heart
Both broke down & I'm choked inside
& from the first time when I said Baby Goodbye.


don't know why, but i suddenly thought of this song :/

like whattheFuck is wrong with you. if you have any doubts in me, why not come up & tell me? i don't want to hear all the nice craps you tell & out of a sudden another fuckshit.

self trained cause teachers got meeting. chuyin & i were damn irritated but i think cause of different reasons, ha. anw, mum's sick & now i gotta take care of her :/ rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. oh & gerri came back today, she totally called me while i was having lessons lah, she left after a while. it felt like years since i last saw her though, heh.

& because i still miss you, i can't see myself with another.


school was alright, i lost my appetite :/ trained with an empty stomach, 300mX3 & i got a fucking blister cause my sock got a damn hole ): was told to train with sandals on wednesday, omg i will look like a DA. queensway after that with Pohchuyin & i wanna customize a shirt soon!


lets just say,
You played Pretence this whole while?

I turned around, & saw the girl. The girl I was looking for, the perfect one for me.


Blessed Sacrament for mass this morning, queensway for breakfast then off to gombak stadium with Pohchuyin (: race wasn't good at all for me, & i mistook louisa for Michellewong, haha. left to town with chess, far east, Wisma & paragon. BD! :D took a bus to cathay to look for leisha, her colleagues are funny & that describes her craziness, haha.Okay, & i found out stuff about someone whom i didn't expect to be, ha anyway i don't wish to judge.


I love that pair of hands that warmed me up today (:

What would You say if i ask you Not to go,


allcomers'meet tmr, I'm not quite prepared. they say its not impt though, hmm. its a damn Saturday & i didn't go anywhere else other than HolyFamily for class :/ & i hate school, recess is only happy with the 7 of them, i dread it actually. rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, Bye.


barrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrbie

i'm already fucking tired even before anything gets a hold. i dread coming online cause i know i'd see things i don't wish to see. whatthefuck is wrong with me, i can't get what i want. since last year, i never gotten what i yearn for Even till i got over & Now.


town with chuyin the whole day with Lover & madcow too (: i know rachel will never see this but i'm really sorry. anw, met Barbie somewhere then left around 5 to airport. Maxi Cab(?!) was awesome & we got high. the Driver was nice cause he sent me out after sumay's place. actually its cause its on the way out, so yeah. they were so cute cause they called & asked if i reached the Bus Stop afraid he might send me somewhere else :D i've missed you Ngsumay.

Barbie Doll (:


tell me you're over her. i know you're not ready, lets not start it yet. i don't know if i could wait again, cause the past proved me wrong. i just hope you won't be long, cause my heart can't take it anymore.

I would never wanna start,
cause I know you'll never be here with me.



How about I'm tired of all these heartaches,

Same story here it goes, more hard times falling in love.
even the best don't seem to please me
A guardian angel left my broken heart in hell,
I thought I was over it, but I'm not.

I think I've fallen for the wrong girl.


The future brings me someone new,
cause I'm in love with a Beautiful girl.
She made me forget how much i need you,
how much i miss you.
& i holdHer now, I'm Not afraid to move on.


what if i really like you..

a song isnt rubbish (:
Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for her
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer
So bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea
Watch it away as you cry
A year has passed
The seasons go
Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can <3
the song is addictive (:
posted by clara = clever :DDD

i told myself i love you no more, that i can move on just like you did & put everything behind. i guess i'm rather contradicting cause i still do shed these damn tears for you, i still reminice times we had together, i still miss your defined smell, i still miss your voice every night before i crash, i still miss those perfect pair of hands, i still miss the times you really cared, i still miss your presence within mine. sometimes i really wonder, How did i fal in love with you & i'll never know the answer to that. Everything else can wait, yeah a year passed & i'm still waiting.

was just missing someone, & thank God cause Far Away is playing on repeat (:

hokay, haven't been crapping shit here lately (: anw, mission was alright lah, no tears this time & thats bad.. haha. & gf came back ytd, town with her & claud, caught up with her & i'm glad! today was just town with gerri claud trico jiarui & aly they all. pooled at cuppage, swr & bel came. don't know why but, when i mention swr it'll auto come with Bel :D

anti drug with chess tmr, too bad stc didn't take part, heh. my mum's going for tai chi lessons in CHURCH?! woa..



you know i quite like you, but i don't really know how to put it to words. if i want my girlfriend to be exactly like you, there's no one who can fulfil all these wonderful aspects, except for You.

i tried going on without you,
but time & time i ended up where we stopped.
maybe you don't realise it,
that i don't see another just like you
you're the one i'll love & miss always,
i can't see myself loving another again.

15
fifteen papercuts.