Why couldn't you get what I'm trying to say to you.
You got me on a emotional rollercoaster once again.


The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
It couldn't be that we've been this way before.
I know you don't think that I'm trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core.

But hold your breath,

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again.
Don't make me change my mind.

I won't live to see another day,
I swear its true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find.

This is not what I intended.
I always swore to you that I would never fall apart.
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start.


Finally, this is everything I wanted to say. I hope you get it.

I'm crazy for this girl,
right now, rightt noww.

S&W only, for todayy. Went over to NT's placee. I realise most of our conversations starts with " zomg yknw........." Bread & hard boiled egg for lunchh. Headed back to school & zomg the weather can kill. Thanks Samzzz for lending me your tummy to lie on, haha!

Didn't trainn today & so I went homee earlyy. zomg & I slept just now, best no sleep for me tonight already.

I want island creamery.

Do you.

So we got married at home. Cause I'm sick Cause she'd rather do smth else. See, ultimately she's at fault, haha. okay kidding.

So I stayed at home todayy. I don't feel like going to school tmr. I'm looking forward to Labour Day. Vinee's birthday is coming! zomg so random.

goodnight.

Heehee.

Rowing. Dinner. Fever no more!

Charmaine is so nice today, she accompanied me home because I had feverr, (: thankss!
zomg we're getting married tmr! wahahaha. at 23:03. Venue to be confirmed, HAHA.

I almost died due to excessive perspiration. I had trouble doing up my stupid tutorial workk, zomg.

I need to get more fbts & singlets & socks & water bottle.

goooodnight.

I'll take care of you.
Have faith I'll be there.

The thing in my eye is annoying me to the max. I hate feeling uncomfortable, ughh. My whole training was screwed, partly cause of that. Self training tmr, I guess. & I'm only going to school for 1hr.

& how about, I feel depressed now.
& how about, I feel really annoyed.
& how about, sad?

whatever, this sucks. I'm gonna sleep it off though its not gonna work.

Better day tmr.

Because you made me believe in myself,
when nobody else can help.

Training on Tuesdayy was zomg okay. Besides the old injury on my arm, hurr.
I had IT lessons the whole of ytd, I can die. Chomp Chomp & Liquid Kitchen after. Punggol later onn. I just spent much much on cabs ytd, saddy waddy.

Watching Bucket List with Noveyy Bobby & Charmaine laterr. okay Char doesn't know we're watching, hehe. Training after, & zomg my arm's killing me. Okay, I'm boreddd.

I haven't felt this wayy in a long time.

You look so beauuutiful today,
When you're sitting there is hard for me to look away.


Feeling it, I'm feeling it again. But I know I'm not in for it, anymore.

They talk about Monday blues, they talk about sugar rushes, they talk about anxiety all. I was really shagged today I fell asleep in every Lt or Tut. & break was (: Sam!!!!! we seriously need to take a chill pill, haha.
School ended. Ivin's for dinner with Nov & Bobz. Met Wr & Bel there.

I'm velly glad. No more 6hr break tmr. Which means I won't end at 6. Which means I won't be late for Tuesday trainings. Which means Idk whatever.

zzz.

I've never felt nothing in the world like this before,
how I'm missing you & wishing you'd come back through my door.

Not to pin hopes Not anymore.


If only you got what I meant. Yet I hope you didn't. Do you get this, do you get this?
The point of time I feel the worst.

I JUST MISSED THE THREADLESS SPREE, DAMN IT.

I'd beg for you, but I don't kneel.
So why not come & take a drink with me.

Goooooood yet not so good. Stc's funfair today & whoo I got to see many many people. I love to sing Low. So addictive. Caught up with a couple of people. Bobby came down after training, hehe. Headed to CJ for dinnerr. Bobz & I didn't feel like going home so we sorta accompanied Nov homee & we ended up at her placee. Cabbed home after. I'm velly velly shagged.

I miss yknw who, hehe.

Not another emotional rollercoaster.

I knew I'll come to regret it.

Cause you put me through so many emotions,



Be okay please, ugh.

Tonight's the night that I'll fall for you.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find, impossible to find.

School's draining me out, really badly. Stc's funfair tmr, I think I think I'm gonna runn after that. I bought my loooooong loooooong time ago wanna buy havaianas, happy me, (: & & more more stuffs too, hehe.

Just when I was gonna let you know everything, just everything.
I think its better that I don't, things would be better this way.

Should I go for the Click 5 concert or get my Cheap Monday jeans? zomg, I've got one vote for Click 5, whoo!

I secretly, secretly love everything about her.

I.Am.Tireddddddddddddddddd.

Training.Training.Training.
I don't feel like attending school tmr already, I feel I feel I can sleep velly velly soundly later on.
Pandoraaa! Please drive me homeee every Tuesday & Thursday from NP thankyou velly much, haha. O.O

Make it simple & easy. I love you.

I hope you get it.

Its the end of the world in my mind.
Then your voice pulls me back, like a wake up call.

Wednesdays equals to IT day. It seriously sucks especially after such a long break. I yawned 23 times in a minute, I think. Holland with Mc & Samzzz during break I ate my coronet, hehe (:

No school no school I can finally sleep in.


' ❤samantha. maintain says:
I GOT 4 CONSECUTIVE
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
I AM GG TO WIN SOONhaha
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
the rest so noob
Joy says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Joy says:
you lose I laugh
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
okay
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
fuck
' ❤samantha. maintain says:
i just lose
Joy says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA

she's playing Viwawa, haha so lousyyyyyyyy.


TC!

Soulmate.

I've no school on Thursdays for the first two weeks! & then it'll be attachments already.
I wish Nobel can teleport home now, I want I want the picture, hehe.

There's this superrr huge furry furry wormy thing that crawled onto my laptop case today :O
& haha, I flicked it to the guy sitting next to me because he was rude he didn't mention Excuse me when he wanted to have the sit beside.
I felt bad after.

I think she has the same middle name as I, (:

I'm bored.

David & Goliath spreeeeeeee!


School starts today. I signed up for db, unknowingly haha. Did gym for a while then lessons. Samzzz is seriously hilarious, zomg I can die laughing. Maybe, I'll crash NT's lecture tmr hehe. & I think my school's insane. The air-con is really free flow & we had to open all doors & windows.



zomg, I wanna get the Robots make better lovers shirt. no, maybe I'll get. or yeah, I should just get it now.


I think training starts on Thursday, O.O


zzz.

I very much wanna be a superwoman, (:

School's starting tmr, & so does my "first" self-training.
I missed out on good time at mos last night, but paying respect earlyyy in the morning is important yo, hehe.

Samzz is hilarious. I'll gain more laughing fits during trainings in future.

I love my grandma's cooking.

I accidentally slept just now again, o.o now I'll have trouble sleeping.

okay bye. I want yoghurt.

Everyone is watching, everyone is waiting.
Everywhere we look now, all there is hating.

So the plans to explore dempsey land is cancelled. I met gf. School in the early morning. Holland. Town. Dinner somewhere. Tiong. Home. It explains my ezlink balance of 4++ bucks. We laughed about everything like hiphop jelly, how she walks down the stairs with her stupid thigh aches, how she mispronounces everytime. I tend to just laugh & she'll die doing the same cause her tummy hurts, haha. My madcow came too cause she just loves us too much, right? hehe.

This is stressing me out. I have a 6hr long break every Tuesday. Self-training will just drain me out in between.

I love Pillows.

Okay bye. Tmr's an early day.

Forgotten was playing on repeat in my head.

Cheer up, my dear. This doesn't mean the end, certainly. Remember what you told me? About being strong. Back to you. Treat this as a lesson, a tough one maybe. You know everyone you're close to cares for you, apart from what you're facing, sometimes they're all you need. Take this time to think, everything you've done the past month. Was it right or definite wrong. You know it best. Take things easy. Easier said than done, just try. I'm surely sure things will be fine.

Cause I'll be here & there for you. I love you.

Cause you fucking screwed things for me,
Are you happy now?

I regretted,






I'm getting a job again.
I need to clear my drawer full of sweet nothings.

& through the rising falling apart,
We discover who we are.

shouldn't have slept in the afternoon.
I wouldn't be able to sleep, & tmr's an early day.

I want my ez link.

I showered with my thongs on in school, (:

She's always there when I needed her,
TGFN, <3

& We obviously support Adidas, & & Casio, hehe.

& I know, I can smile it away.

Tango's become our usual spot every time we step into Holland.

It feels good after running & gym-ing for two consecutive days. The way Samzz & Novey did weights was O.O, seriouslyyyyyyy.

So, I was right.

Hello robot, I hope you're fine & will be, at least, smiling away after seeing that picture. I don't exactly know what happened but it almost happened to me too. & I know you're super strong cause you always are & you'll be mighty fine, (:

Because you don't see it in the things I do,
Because you never knew my way of doing things..

Melted cupcakes with your favourite Tiramisu & Chocolate,
& got myself the biggest disappointment, ever.

& Because I'll keep to my promise..

I'll do whatever it takes,
to turn this around.

Idk if I should go to school to run tmr with Novey & Samzzz.

I walked alot, really really really alot, today. Town to get bag with Maple then Queensway. Home to put down stuff, packed up stuff & out again. Walked to Art Friend just for one white cardboard Walked back past home to stadium Walked home after finding out gym's not for public.

Feeling, a feeling, no orientation?

Now I'm singing such a sad song
these things never seem to last long.
Something that I never planned on,
Help me.

Whatever it takes, I promise.

I got peektures from Char, happy me. Yet not.

Walked to Popular just to get a marker. & because of that, I didn't meet Dan & the rest. Treated my parents xlb & crabs for dinner. I'm dreading Wednesday, but not. this sucks.


Struggling with my thoughts
Change the locks inside my head.
Reading between the lines
of what you say & what you said.
Driving through the night to nowhere
trying to forget trying to forget.

She dance away just like a child,
& I'm helpless when she smiles.

Cheeeeeros! Sue me sue me.

First.

All the best speed for your race, robot.

Second.

All the best strength for db race too.

Got my Adizero, finally.

wait waiting waited.

Left for Holland v. Ipoh Ipoh. Tango's. Town.

I was fed cottoncandy, (:

I'll survive with a light stick.

The future's about to change. Before you know it, the curtain closes Take a look around. There's no one in the crowd, & I'm throwing away the pain. & you should know that your performance made me strong enough.

So take a bow, cause you've taken everything else.

You played the part, & like a star you played it so well.

Take a bow, this scene is coming to an end.

Be fucking sensitive, cold blooded.

Not.
In.
Any.
Fucking.
Mood.

St. Theresa's Convent. Went back for the sake of Charlene teo. Saw many many humans I haven't seen for long. WKS's daaamn funny. Bobby's place after. Played mahjong Watched teevee. Buddy's cute He's mixed breed. I miss Prince..

Queensway to get my sports stuff tmr, & train train training.
I'm all under myself.

An ant just went into my ear.

Because time ran out
Because I'm stubborn
Because you're insensitive,

I guess I've had enough of putting up with this & that.
I'm all set, ready & get set, to leave.

I wish there's a song,
a song that I can express everything.

say hello to Randal!
he doesn't hate me anymore, oh yeah I can bet on that, haha.

they seem ignorant, I've come to forget everything I knew.
no more fear no more fights I'm not missing you.

whoohoo, Bobby may be going Perth with me in August, (: & now, Joe can drive us around cause she's got her stupid license & I can finally visit aallll the places I've missed out in Jan! I can't wait.
but, not confirmed not confirmed.

No run today. I feel kinda uncomfortable. yay yo, I'm doing up something for robot. she's back todayyy. & I wanna visit my lomomomo today again, prolly later! & &, more polaroid films, normal films, Theresian awards day, swimming/gym, tmr.

I miss working at Portcullis. I need to find some part time againnn, so I'll have more than enough for Perth & US in Aug & Dec! (:

I found a singing partner......... Bobby! Wahaha.

One mistake & I'm sorry,
time's up.

Everything I feel for you I wrote down on one piece of paper
the one in your hand, you won't understand.

Tired.
Stc for training today. Jogs & Gym.
Raffles City after to take a look at the cameras. I don't know which to get.
I need a new bag. I need a shoe bag. I need running shoes. I need laptop case.

Walk Walked, & think & thought.

I'm Very Tired.
robot's back tmr!

Let me know let me know
or would you rather see me leave?

Cause you never saw everything I did,
I was taken for granted.

Sleep.Tv.Out.Home.Movie.Training. Routine.
No aimless thoughts No emotional rollercoaster No no no no no no no no no no.
The drawer will be cleared soon. Time to pack up & throw.
& I'll sing you one last song.

I love trainings.
I love robot.

bye.

Don't look back on yesterday,
cause that time has been & gone.

No no mahjong but we four met up today. Meet NT first in town after packing my table. Threw away aaaalllll my worksheets, bye bye. Went many many places then met Bobby & Joanne. Paragon Orange Julius Heeren Spinelli's. okay I hope mahjong's on tomorrow. Thinking I'm going to Stc to do weights too, & see my all time favourite laughter girl, :D

J,J,J,N. Novelyn's the odd one out! HAWHAW!

oh, & I forgot to add. I think its rather hilarious how you can believe all her stupid lies. I see no meaning, absolutely no meaning in the things she say. come on, she's a fucking liar to start with. Trying hard to be a saint here? Too bad I'm not. Hate is too harsh a word, but yes, I do.