Sweet sweet nothings.

Hi prac was terror I know how to do the experiment but not find the answer to write down. I love to see the reaction occur haha. Looking at my classmate do her practical can make me laugh, haha. & sorry Char, no bullies anymore ): stayed for night study with the usual people then home.

twin remember our once a week date! :D

I should go read For one more day & pass the book around to the clique cause I realise quite a number of people are reading that book & everyone wants to get their eyes on it haha. finally, this Sunday we all can get together again I really missed that.

okay goodnight once again,
lets just put it this way, nothing taste as sweet as what I've got <3

Come on,
(hahaha Joyce, lai ba)

Tmr's chem/phy prelims prac & I can't find all the pracs I did the past week ):
anw, yeah I saw a madman at the bus stop with Sam, o.o haha. the smiley's damn retarded.

): I'm pondering on whats gonna happen. yes I dislike it, so what're you gonna do about it? nothing. I'm not over it, no never so fast. thinking back on what I said, I'm sorry I didn't make up to you.

Boys like Girls (:

Hi school was boring ): I slept for so many periods & I feel bad. school's more interesting with annoying friends like Charlene & Mer :D please don't see it in a bad way, cheering people up can be your forte! haha. oh, Gerri came today & as usual I felt like I haven't seen her for so long! she's taking out her braces in 2 months ): braces are nice, haha. Central after school with Sam, studied not much then home.

yeah talk about priorities, hmm. okay lets just say I don't wanna busy you further so you have one less priority to bother (: I don't wanna argue, I'm also tired of trying to make an effort to make it up to you. you're wondering making up for what, well go think. I held on to, if not for the bad times the good ones won't seem so great, too much that I'm starting not to do anything about everything. I find it hard to say, & you find it hard to care.

standing on the rooftop,
everybody scream your hearts out.


Celine, please get well soon. Hope its nothing serious though! <3

Hi I have the sudden urge to like blog alot but my day isn't very interesting & I don't know what to say! ): anw, stayed at home & rot with everyone else & I studied Biology. headed to town to meet Chess. walked around & saw the Adtag thing on the streets. so decided to msg the thingy & we won 2 bucks each, haha! yeah like wth right, 2 bucks only. anw, met up with Sumay & Chuyin & went NUH together. Celine's so poor thing, she look so tired & she still can do Amaths -.- back to town for a while, then home.

Hi Charleene, hope you're fine. you don't sound happy ): I'll be here <3

okay, goodnight everyone. I'm going to dream about SB (:

CHEEEEEEEEEEER UP, GIRLFRIEND. THOUGH YOU'RE JUST NEXT TO ME, HAHA. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU & I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU <3


today's been so-so. school was normal just that I got pin-pointed by somebody early in the morning when I didn't do anything that offended her in any way. rushed off straight after school to meet SWR cause she really gave me a shock over the phone. skipped Charles Barton's course but I heard Char had fun without me next to her ): Char I need to show you more signs of affection, haha! yucks, no way. back to her house then to mine then to Arab Street to meet Claud. sheesha, then home with gf. I told her story on the way back, bathe with Strawberry shower gel, pray before you sleep, at least not cry if not you'll have puffy eyes the next day then you'll have a better day ahead tmr with fresh donuts from donut factory. I got -.- face from Claud, hurr ):


I've got nothing to say cause words get in the way. I don't wanna lose this, simple as that. the way you perceive things is different from me, not same difference this time. Hi I love you.

You got me thinking, if I ever meant to you.

just had dinner with the relatives & I think my cousin's so (: okay can't beat the girl I saw at CCK haha! my cousin's a runner too & omg her life's damn good, ahh whatever. dinner was boring I almost died of bloatedness, if there's even such a word. home at 11plus pm, & I can't sleep cause yeah, hurr :/ I'm never wrong, whenever I think that sorry don't seem to be the hardest word.

I don't want these apologies, rahhhhh )':


I'd love to see the day you come & tell me I'm the only one you need
You've got me right where you want me, right where I shouldn't be
But, I'm finding it hard to say goodbye to something I hold true
& I'm tired of being something that means nothing to you.

Fireworks.

Hi everyday's been almost the same, hurr. anw, think we're going down CCK for the Finals ): actually, thinking about it I'm wondering why am I even so keen on going down. not like I ever get to run on the final day before, & we're going down to support others? hmm good sportsmanship I suppose? ha. ahh whatever.

Joycelynn's as retarded as ever.
Joy: you have fireworks?
Joy: by PWT's.
Joyce: huh? I got the video its in my phone.
Joy: omg, I meant fireworks by Plain White T's! hahaha!

okay, off now to dream about msl (: right, goodnight.

Don't wanna lose you now,
I know we can win this.

I seriously have no appetite. I just ate something Sophia gave me & its so small :/ after that I didn't eat the whole day & now I'm looking at my dinner feeling so full ): okay, I don't know what else to blog, hurr.

I miss you I miss you ): this feeling isn't helping me feel any better & I feel like calling you right nowwwwwww, hurr.

Don't matter - Akon
Wait for you - Elliot Yamin
4 in the morning - Gwen Steffani

played on repeat the whole day ):

My comp's still not very kind to access to the internet so I'm using the one outside ): anyway, the day was fun at Raffles Town Club haha Hi Claud. yes I can't post the pictures up cause the USB's having problems too ughh & someone's been complaining about my friendster being over boring haha. & oh, cause today's a Sunday so there'll naturally have many Indians downstairs & omg I swear most of them look alike. can you imagine walking & seeing almost same faces hurr kinda having nightmare. & when you hear all their voices together it sounds like I don't know what lah, ha. Num num num ): anw, woke up out of a sudden cause I was dreaming of her & I swear I thought it was real so yeah, was at 730am. from then I couldn't get back to sleep & its so irritating ): watched tv & all & basically rot my life away the whole morning. I need to start thinking about my direct poly thing cause the deadline's tmr rahh ): this week's gonna be )':

I think there's a serious misunderstanding right here, cause the whole situation isn't your fault. sorry if you read something somewhere but no one's blaming you. we need to talk but I know you won't wanna hear whatever I gotta say so shut up Joy. but I just need you to know what is actually happening & maybe, maybe there's a miscommunication. ah nevermind, forget it I sound like some fool. okay nothing more to say cause I've said everything I wanted to in my previous post & through messages so take care. trust me, cause thats the most words can do & I can't do more to prove it to you. just like how I managed to trust you, I hope you can do the same. & please, I really did trust you there's seriously a misunderstanding lah Hurr )':

I'm sorry I fulfilled only rule #1, - love You.
maybe you even forgot about the rules.

I'm never gonna treat you bad,
cause I never wanna see you sad.

I miss you, I really do. been thinking about stuffs we're supposed to do, watching Alone & cooking on thurs & clark quay to look at broken houses, oh well please come back )': its my fault for just blowing everthing & I'm just willing to do anything to get you back this is the crucial period I can't bear to let go. if you gave me another 1, I swear I won't blow it yes you don't trust me anymore but thats the most words can do. what about "don't go & I'll give you the best?" hurr this blow is really great I swear & cross cross my heart the same thing will never happen again hurrrrrrrrrr )':

I'm on my knees,
I'm sorry I hurt you time & time
this time if you come back,
I promise never to break you again.

so much for 138 days later Sumay, ha.

yes, I screwed things up big time I'm sorry. I know apologies don't cut it anymore but I have nothing else to say. take care, you.

Cute without the "E"

caught Harry Potter today with the trackers it was nice. Rach Preece is so dumb omg haha. dinner at kfc & home just on time to catch my tv (: school was crap cause sometimes people are just busy with their lives that you become insignificant to them, haha. I saw a pretty girl & her voice is like (: peninsular after with Sumay & Kelly to get shoes! Sumay & I got the same haha. starbucks at Raffles City then off to PS to meet the rest.

anw, was just thinking about Natioanls & its damn sad. whatever good luck to next year.

goodnight people, today's been tiring ):

its not that I can't say anything or whatever, I'm just choosing not to so that quarrels can be avoided. I understand you need your own freedom & please don't think I'm being care less. things have been rather shitty whats more today's race didn't make me feel any better. the long hair freak can just shoot herself. our school's so not going down on the final day thats sad cause so far this is the first year. ugh I can't be bothered with anything anymore.

Rachel Preece you better thank God I'm not using my comp now or your retarded pictures will all be up HERE! (: haha okay lah I'm just being nice you know I still love you :D
I just msged Rachel asking her if she wanna catch Happy Potter tmr, I feel dumb HAHA.

school tmr & I'm dreading it cause it feels like hols now after missing school for 2 days, hurr. Hi Mer I think you suffered alot with Sophia today, poor crow nvm I'll be back tmr :D


I can't feel any worse than I am now.

I will be strong,
even if it all goes wrong.

:D we made it to Semis & its just tmr, haha. damn I'll have to miss school again. okay, I sound like some nerd but I've missed Bio prac today already & I'll be missing Lit Bio test & maths! omg ):

night study was alright just that I should learn to talk less. not like I love to talk but sometimes people just need to, basically cause I haven't seen everyone for the day haha right. so yeah anw, down at CCK at 8. chatted & all then warm up. it was raining so yeah I was freezing. after the race, headed to lot 1 with Rachel Dawn & Michelle. back to stadium with Dawn cause Leslie wanted me to go back for I don't know what reason & I didn't run the 4by400m relay haha. anw, Ms Eileen drove us to queenstown stadium, stayed for 6 mins & went back to school.

okay I'm tired & I get to wake up late tmr (: goodnight world.

You said to tell you everything but have you actually thought about it that if I spoke, things would turn out terrible. I'm not saying anything doesn't mean I'm fine, I'm not. Yes, each time you're out with . I'll feel worse but I'm learning not to restrict that much cause it doesn't do any good. go ahead, I won't say no more I'm tired & I know you are too. these tears, hatred & anger seems inevitable every night don't blame me I'm sorry. lets just pray tomorrow's a better day, I hope.


I wish we all could win.

Bought over by words,


Hi, today was alright. talked alot to Mer & yeah she made me blush! haha. trained by myself after school & thanks Pris for helping me with the timings! (: was supposed to train at queenstown but no one made it for training so yeah. stayed back for night study with Sam Sophia Joycelynn & Chess. Joyce was being retarded as usual, this time she tested me songs by changing them to chinese. Hello, I've had enough of Chinese haha. home after for tv! (:


I'm tired goodnight.

Maybe a greater thing will happen,
maybe all will see.

Friday was bad. firstly, congrats Cdiv girls for making it to Semis (: secondly, ours wasn't that pleasant & well don't wanna ever talk about it. lastly, thankyou for that medal <3
syf night was boring haha but better with Charlene there! sorry Char if you were real bored haha. town for dinner with Sam, had subway after a longgggg time. home at 11 (:

Saturday was a little better, still bumped out cause of the relay ): met Joyce & Pris at millenia walk to study. productive? not really haha. Joyce left then Pris & I headed to town. we talked about 'Imagine if you're the only survival in the whole entire world' & she talked about migrating then blah blah hahaha. Pris left, met Claud! haha its been donkey years. walked around ate then orange julius to study. the Starbucks at California Fitness closed down, haha sad. met Aly after then left kinda early. sorry Claud!

Today, I'm so staying at home with the mum :/ she ain't that entertaining though, hurr & I can't study at home! Night Study! omg I need it. Hi mum, buy me foooood ):


you said you wanna be here,
but what I'm going through isn't good to bear.
you promised
yet its somewhere hanging.


I really need a happy pill ):

The sweetest thing is what you are,
from you I'll never be too far.

Milkrun today. Met the rest at tiong first, to school then wherever that place is. it was so fucking humid. had fun making fun of Dawn that idiot, she can be RachelPreece no.2. oh well, Rach still wins hands down, haha. chatted & all tiring but fun lah. headed to meet Sam then Ikea for dinner. Meatballs! damn I wonder when will I eat it again.

hurr, I'm like missing out damn alot tonight cause my whole family are at St. James. yeah I can't get in but the rest are chilling out somewhere near ): if not for training & my tiring day & my dad's stupid logic, I'll be having the time of my life too, RAHHHHHHH. my cousin's so pretty, she's from Aust & she can fucking drive! I feel so shit cause she's my age hurr.

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okay just got back from marina kbox I swear my brother's damn awesome (: anw, I get to see my pretty cousin! so its kinda alright haha. they're leaving for London tmr & I'm starting school on tues hurr.

I don't really like to feel terrible, maybe someone can tell me how to stop it? ha doubt there's any kind soul. fuck insecurities, sensitiveness & anger, seriously.

Hi I smell like you. ): ): my eyes are playing tricks?