I want my all time favourite girl,
I love her.

my tan, or you can say, burn, is damn bad. Aloe Vera gel is not helping much, not even a little too. I just love the smell, haha.

I went back to STC today, to collect my testimonial. yeah Pearline Sim just had to make us go down again to get a freaking visitor pass? I find it funny like how a school doesn't invite ex students back. both of us were scolding like mad bitches, haha. went off to town with Nobel & Chess. Fer came after, & we had Thai Express, (: wanted to get Havaianas but nah, I'm gonna wait for the dark green one, whooooo.

I have to admit, I got scared because of the stupid damned terrorist okay. I had wild imaginations this morning while going to work, haha. whatever, I'm over it by now like duh.

BBQ tomorrow, guess I'm going late. I'm ): bye.

What goes around, comes back around.
Are you scared now?

what a bad news I got today, that my appeal wasn't successful.. & I seriously think the operator from TP should get sacked because her answers are like ?! anyway, yeah I don't know if I shld try writing in or just settle on Psb. this is giving me headaches, ):

tanning today with Trico. & as compared to the previous time, the burnt I got is wayyyyy worse & I dread showering nowww.. but, of course I still shower. town after to meet Jiarrrrruuuuuuuui, (: had din din dinnerrrr at Swensens then I got to play pool finally after twentyeight years. watched Ah Long Pte Ltd againnnn & my burns kept me warm during the movie. just that, it kinda turn cold too towards the end.

gonna go for the edu fair tomorrow at Suntec which means, half day again. my pay's gonna be like just enough for me to go to BKK & back.

my school will start on 5th May if I'm going Psb, so thats good because I get to decide if I'm going to Australia again or to BKK! but, not that great because I have to mug like a mad bitch & thats my life for the next 3 years.

omg, Dan just tried to run into the room cause he's damn angry but, the door was locked so it sounded like a mad dog charging against the door, I felt a 1 second tremor.


laughs & cries.

I got a new favourite number, (:

I've concluded that my twin has a hidden talent - drawing.
so I may have a hidden talent too..

so, attempts to pull myself to the track to run didn't happen again. I should take up rolling, haha right Merli? anyway, Mer's so into her jc life that she doesn't have time for me. so much for abandoning her while I was at Perth, she takes revenge. & Char misses me calling her pretty. such an irony, (: & I bet she's gonna screeeeaaaaaaam when she sees me, haha. kidding!

I was told, that the production of Polaroid films stopped! omg, stabzxzz. I was still thinking of getting another one, I guess not anymore. & the worse thing is, the films have expiry dates, so no point if I get many & keep & don't use in the end, hurr.

okay, results for appeals on 28th!

goodnight, :O

Be my -----girl.

I can't blame you if you turn away from me,
like I've done you.

so I came home just to realise why I hadn't receive any phone calls from my home, tell me my intuition is accurate. & now I have to plug in ear plugs, (:

left work early today for another interview. gosh, I'd rather remain this job. met up with Wanru Nobel Sophia Chess Hanwei. Rachel & Xinyi came after. Din Tai Fung at Paragon for dinner, not exactly actually, then over to Spaggedies (?!). whatever. I haven't been to the arcade since a long time ago, so played for a while then home.

I can't wait for chalet. I hope gf is going.

I need another jobbbbbbbbbbbbbbb........

7

Talk about the differences,
it could be sorted out.

supposed to meet Csh last night but being the world's irritating girl ever, she couldn't make it. so I met up with Mark instead at Bishan. wanted to catch a movie but not much to choose from. so, we sat at some place instead & talked, haha.
okay, I think I'm gonna watch Ah Long for the second time. thats brilliant. but I think its funny, at least.

I hate it when people comments on the course I'm given like : "omg its a no future course so please don't take it." or " omg, are you gonna appeal?" please, Early Childhood is not only to take care of little kids Why take a diploma just to take care of kids? think before you comment.
I guess I'm only not taking it cause I have little interest in it & I don't wish to waste 3 whole years doing something I don't prefer? hurr.

I'd like to snap out of this,
& move on already.

I don't need your worthless sympathy,
cause you cheated already.

so, I'm considering Psb Academy nowwwww........... should be taking Bachelor of Commerce & get a degree in 3 years. tell me about it. okay, all these are just temporary thinking. guess I'll only make a decision after 28th Feb. Psb's quite nice, & the only person I know who's going there too is Zenn! but, she's taking the Diploma, so different.

maybe studying in Perth will be better, & a new environment. okay, so now I have 4 choices. wait for appeal, continue Early Childhood, Psb or Overseas. cool, but stress.

I hate long bus rides, the nerves in my brain will start working & there goes my day. but, I travel far every morning, thats sad. oh well, I hate everything you put me through, I really hate it. I really really really do.....

my sacrifice for lent is : no vulgarities. its working, & I shld consider what Joycelynn said. why only lent? why not forever?

SIM tomorrow, I don't understand. I never thought I'd be considering private.

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Your not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

& so I'm letting go of everything we were,
it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

so, met up with Mo & Mel yesterday. it was Mel's last night here so yeah. caught the Ah Long movie. its funny & I don't think Fann Wong over acted at all, haha. sat at Coffee Bean after that, I brought my Coolpix cause I know they're one of the cam-whore people, haha.
I was supposed to meet Esther yesterday, but Idk what happened we didn't contact each other at all, so weird. hmm.
& I was supposed to meet Mer & Sophia today. Merli is dumb, so she thought it was cancelled. & Sophia had cramps, so I borrowed My Wife Is A Gangster 3 to watch, haha.

oh, & I went cycling at ECP with my parents on Sunday. haha, they rode the double bike. & the main purpose is for my mum to exercise, but she claims she was damn relaxed -.- I'm gonna jog next week, :D

& I guess I'm rolling to Perth again in March, (: its not confirmed yet, but I hope so. gone for good, I wish. & I'm gonna book the Safra bungalow during the March hols! triple smiley. thats if there are available rooms lah, haha.

Pictures up!

& so I'm letting go of everything we were,
it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

so, met up with Mo & Mel yesterday. it was Mel's last night here so yeah. caught the Ah Long movie. its funny & I don't think Fann Wong over acted at all, haha. sat at Coffee Bean after that, I brought my Coolpix cause I know they're one of the cam-whore people, haha.
I was supposed to meet Esther yesterday, but Idk what happened we didn't contact each other at all, so weird. hmm.
& I was supposed to meet Mer & Sophia today. Merli is dumb, so she thought it was cancelled. & Sophia had cramps, so I borrowed My Wife Is A Gangster 3 to watch, haha.

oh, & I went cycling at ECP with my parents on Sunday. haha, they rode the double bike. & the main purpose is for my mum to exercise, but she claims she was damn relaxed -.- I'm gonna jog next week, :D

& I guess I'm rolling to Perth again in March, (: its not confirmed yet, but I hope so. gone for good, I wish. & I'm gonna book the Safra bungalow during the March hols! triple smiley. thats if there are available rooms lah, haha.

Happy Valentine's.

I can't remember exactly what happened the past few days but roughly yeah.
going for check up on my jaw tomorrow & I'm dreading it. there's definitely something wrong with it but I don't wanna know, haha. so half day tomorrow, double smiley.
I saw a fantastic Converse shoe today. not that fantastic but whatever it looks nice to me.

now I know why I dislike guys so much. Dan's a perfect reason. many others I heard of & know of too, oh well. & rather one that affects me indirectly as well.

I wanna roll to Perth now.

I'm sorry, I've become who I am. it scares me, to know how much this whole damn thing affected me to such an extend.

When I'm with you, I'll make every second count.

I hope my dad will be fine, he's going to the eye specialist tomorrow to check if there's bleeding. I feel so useless cause I can't do anything, hurr.

I've concluded that gambling is damn bad, okay lah cause I lost today, haha. Mel's leaving for good on Monday, ): like how sudden, oh well hopefully I can send her off.
anyway, I met up with Mer & Char yesterday, (: meeting them again this week & Char, you better not wear heels cause I won't allow you to hold on to my bag anymore, haha. surprisingly, they didn't call me gay kuan.

I need to go running tomorrow.

pictures on their blogs I suppose.
bye goodnight.

House warming 2.
stay like this forever.
Wanru: OMG YOUR LOOK LIKE
BROTHERS!! (haha)

You're on my heart just like a tattoo,

lesser quarrels for this period. happy. not to be a pessimist, I'm just waiting for the replays after cny.

Visiting is boring. played black jack for 3 hrs, at least I won. I threw a 7 year old boy on the floor, & he literally flew. omg I feel bad. I'm going to Sophia's tomorrow! its like a tradition now, for Christmas & Cny too, haha.
I just watched CJ7, its like -.- to the max. seriously.

I'm gonna play badminton with mummy tomorrow, (:
okay some pictures up.


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Untouched by The Veronicas sounds nice, but its kinda desperate. Idk, but its some top chart hits in Aust. I wanna go KL, I'm praying we can go.
this is so gonna be damn random. oh, & I got new Creative, (:
Mel's gonna study in Perth, thats awesome. I'd go over more often then I can visit her too! haha. I miss Prince, he probably can't remember me anymore. oh well, dogs don't have 3 seconds memory like fishes I reckon.

omg, did I mention. the family who owns Swirl at Crown centre is a bunch of two faced bitches. the youngest son has retarded character & he ought to be a petty girl. the older son has stupid moodswings. the mother has the most annoying menopause syndroms, & the girlfriend has the worst habit of being two faced. I'm so gonna get sued if any of them reads this, but whatever. Maria will be laughing her ass off if she's reading this. they ought to be shot.

I got my pay! for a week's work -.- better than nothing, yes. & I'm gonna be good & treat the family to steamboat. maybe Billy Bombers would be better. anyway, the pay's not from Swirl. I can't give a treat with THAT little pay from them.

I didn't know if you eat more than 1 orange., your pee will turn yellow :/ thats according to Deb lah, but I doubt it. I just know if you eat too much carrots, your skin will turn orange? eww.

I miss Csh, she's going to Genting. bet she's getting sick of that place already, haha. I should have recorded the way she speaks that night, like Bollywood superstar. cool shit.

I'll go to bed now, bye.

I go crazy from the moment I met you.

Queen of my heart,

the things you said kept me going while I was away, & I Miss You was on repeat. if only I knew, I wouldn't allow myself to. & if only I didn't have to hear whatever you said to me, it just picked me up from where I fell. Yes, I remember.

& now, I guess I'll put everything aside. I just wish for things to be like how it was for this family.

I'm back to working at Swirl at night from tomorrow onwards, they're rude & I don't really like them but who cares.
House warming at Sumay's last Saturday was fun. I left around 5 to St Mary's then to Blessed for mass. back to Sumay's after that. many others came & I was glad to see Celine & Vinee because they kinda MIA-ed from me, haha. & as usual, Csh was fantasizing herself being in Bangla :D
Went Vivo to shop with my parents today. once in a blue moon thing. got my blouse from Zara & polo shirts, (: went to check out prices to Genting after in the evening. & I'm definitely more than happy just to spend time with them.

I don't wanna feel the way that I do,
I just wanna be right here with you.
I don't wanna see, see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you,

I didn't eat at all, yesterday. probably only a sandwich? & I survived at night on - .

Follow him or her?
My family is screwed.