big fake smiles & fucking lies.


met gerri & chess at holland v (: psychic was late & she owe me one! went coffee club to study for a while. wasn't in the mood at all. psychic wanted to go town, so we left. halfway, i decided to stay & study. i'm sure chess wanted to kill me, haha. went starbucks for barely 5 mins then left for psychic's house! :D sunshine was so moody lah ):

watched some ballet show at her house! it's so boring & i slept (: psychic was being irritating & keep wanting to see my phone's pictures! rawr. after that, twin's mother came to pick me for church. she scolding twin cos i took very long? so shit lah, haha.

over to twin's house tomorrow! :D hope i can study there, haha.


i need no one else, except you. but,you just gotta ruin everything at this point of time. after so much, i can't feel the pain anymore. since you don't need me & didn't love me in the first place, say so.

behind this face, lies a thousand fucking lies.


i won't be asking for more, & that's it. i'm feeling so numb, i won't feel hurt anymore.
couldn't pay attention during eng paper ): after school, went harbour with twin & psychic! :D i feel so weird ): heh. went foodcourt to study & only psychic studied! twin was reading something else & i was irritating chess! :D

heard about some stuff from girlfriend. i don't know who to trust now & what i should believe. anw, holland v to study tmr! :) many things to talk to chess about too!


when you walked in, you were too quick to judge.

maybe it's just the way i picture it.

my mp3 is working again! :D

girlfriend didn't come to school today. ): pe was fun today! finally played badminton in like a million years! twin & i got the record of 34 hits continuously. haha! it's kinda little compared to 3B lah. went library to accompany psychic during recess. gerri came a while then left, stupid girl. (: double chinese after maths. ): sunshine kept walking past! & i kept getting distracted, then that stupid person gotta screammm at me & threaten to close the door if i get distracted again. it's none of her business lah, not say i'm disturbing her. Rawr.

mer & twin got high during chinese! :D i poked mer's leg accidentally, sorry mer! ): & it didn't even bleed & she keep complaining that it's bleeding. hurr! she & char can go shake hands already. haha. mer's weird! not me! (:

had extra maths lessons after eng. maths can really kill my brain cells! ): mr poon was being funny & he made it! haha! :D he's just trying to be lame lah.

twin wants to be mentioned here. TWIN! here you go! :D that's all. bleah. haha!

& i hate it when school ended. quarelled with sunshine over a small matter! ): i'm sorry, i didn't mean to argue with you though you're trying to talk nicely. ugh, i don't know. i hate to feel this way! ):

true care, truth brings.

& i've always walked alone.


stayed home the whole day (: didn't do much studying though. i feel like dropping A maths! ): i can't figure out what it is at all! Ugh. stupid sunshine, keep scolding me today! ):

tomorrow's clique outing at sentosa! :D finally everyone can make it (: i really miss all of them! haha. i don't like tomorrow's timetable! double eng & have to sit according to register number ): going to be boring without twin, mer & char! ): she's always taking up part of our recess time too!

& my mp3 died on me! ): it's gonna be lonely bus ride to school from tomorrow onwards! psychic! hurry lend me yours! :D i will kill creative if i send it for repair & it comes back without the pig there! heh.

& tomorrow is so happening! estherlim's coming back too! (: finally can see MY LOVE after so long :D hope she can come back earlier if not we'll not meet up again ): esther! come earlier you kuku girl! haha.


when you're looking like that.

for you i'll take, the last flight out.


didn't meet up with cheryl today ): shall meet up with her after exams or something (: managed to study 2 chapters of bio! i've decided to finish revision for bio this weekend. don't know if its possible. haha. went church late, as usual (: the class today was pathetic! only three turned up :D hahaha.


I'm not in the mood to study now ): & there's no nice shows to watch! tomorrow's gonna be so boring! ): i hate exams! hafta start mugging, can't go out. rawr. ):


its not that it pains me to talk abt it, but i just don't feel like. don't think otherwise cause lying to you would probably be the last thing i'll do. & its not that i don't like it when you're out, it just feels like i don't know you for that period of time ): ahh, whatever. i'm tired ):

I'll always look back, as i walk away.

had chinese for first period. ): talked to mer about some stuff. (: she's so funny lah! haha. she got a very big mosquito bite on her leg, then i told her she'll get dengue. wha, her reaction was so funny! :D paranoid girl. (: & later was chem. when i have the mood to listen in class, i gotta go canteen to set up stall. ): i don't wanna fail! ugh.

Bazaar was so fun! :D & we didn't manage to sell all the bands lah. haha. water bomb is fun! played with gerri & chess. (: they are supposed to aim into the pail i'm holding, they end up throwing on me! ): I was so wet lah. haha! dedicated song to sunshine :D, psychic (: & CHAOS! (: CATCH YOUR WAVE! haha. I don't know why but i went high the whole time. haha. then, training. did quite alot today. ): Didn't get to go for 'haunted house'. ): heard that wanru & chess screamed alot! :D

went holland v after that. Ate with psychic. (: She's sad. & i suck when it comes to cheering people up. even sunshine agrees with it. ): I'm sorry psychic for not able to cheer you up just now. & sorry sunshine too! ): accompanied gerri to meridien then went home. (:

Madcow day in 2 days time! & we still haven't decide on girlfriends day! Wanru hurry think! :D

that little time spent with you, is enough to make me happy. (:

my heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with.

oh my gosh. there's so many things happening right now! ): ugh, it's very irritating! exams around the corner & so much to think of at the same time. whathehell. rawr! ):
tomorrow's the raising fund thing. i don't know what lah. haha. I don't know if i should even spend cos i'm kinda broke? stupid.. & it lasts until 3 only. how to sell so many stuffs at such a short time? no brainer. haha!

syf practise after school! (: char went mad lah. haha. i'm so tired & mer, sophia & char had to make me jump here & there! whalao, wanted to strangle them! haha. I only went high towards the end of everything. :D went for tuition after that. & we talked so much that we forgot to finish our work. haha. we didn't even realise that tuition ended already lah. HAHA! From next week onwards, laura's not coming anymore. ):

I'm so into catch your wave man! :D tomorrow i'm so gonna ask kelly to play that song like a million times & make everyone in love with it! :D

girlfriend's letter was so sweet that i almost melted. (: i love my girlfriend! :D

hey girl, i wanna catch your wave.
i wanna drift away with you, sunshine. (:

I'll follow you round, just like a shadow.
sunshine, sunshine, sunshine.. where'd you go?

hmm, i wonder who is the number person.. anw, thankyou for helping. (: haha. those losers have nothing better to do what, i guess they're dead by now. Cos they had probably looked at themselves in the mirror & got a shock! :D whatever..
& PSYCHIC! (: thanks for helping man. haha. we've got REAL psychic powers! haha. & please don't get too affected by what's happening right now. Take time to think through. (: i love my psychic partner! :D

double bio was fun! :D twin & i didn't bother to do the practical at all lah. & twin broke a damn beaker! haha. whalao, the chinese teacher can really go kill herself man. i hate chinese. ): It wasn't like this last year, with wanru & sihui. :D i wanna play badminton tmr! (:

stayed back in school with twin & others. didn't go for trng again. & for the last time, i'm not lying about being sick! ugh! stayed in the library & did nothing. I hate people who keep pms-ing me! rawr. & i don't like it when i quarrel with people, cos i know i'll be the one who gives in all the time. sucks lah. ):

& i won't assume stuffs anymore. Making assumptions causes many misunderstandings. ): i really can't afford to lose this. I'd do anything to make things right. Cos i'm very sure of what i want right now. (:

A life without you scares me more. ):

you're my sunshine after the rain (:

HMM! disgrace to all the bungs? OKAY LORH. whatever you wish to say. you haven't look at yourself in the mirror yet only. wait till one day you pluck up the courage to, you'll get a greater shock man! hoho, good luck to your poor mirror. sad.. heard that? LOSERS! :D

i love my girlfriend & madcow & the-number person! :DD your are rockers man! haha. some people just don't have a damn life. haha. i won't get affected la. not to worry man. :D i promise i love each & single one of you. NOT forgetting estherlim! (:

school suck man. didn't really enjoyed pe though. syf is killing my body cells!! ugh. i don't like to move around when it's only 2 classes doing it? want to do, do with the whole sec 3 lah. rawr. twin wasn't in a good mood today, again. cheer up!!! (: mr lau took 20 mins of my precious recess time! ugh, i wanted to kill him at that moment lah. haha. & i hate taking up responsibilities & getting the shit scolding for no reason all the time. can't you see? i'm not interested in being your damn pet. UGH!

stayed back to count the bands. It gives me headaches only. ): played around for a while. then went home. (: & twin, i'm sorry for everything okay? i still love you the same. & sorry girlfriend for stepping on your bag today! haha. & thankyou flirt for being there for me whenever i needed someone to talk to. you're always just a step away from me. (:

last thing : SPAMMERS! GET A LIFE! THIS PLACE AIN'T FOR YOU THIS KINDA PEOPLE. & NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY OR DO, I WON'T GET AFFECTED A SINGLE BIT. YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEM WITH ME, COME UP TO ME & CLARIFY. IT'S JUST A DISGRACE TO YOURSELF FOR HIDING BEHIND THE SCREEN & TYPING STUFFS. GUESS YOUR SHOULD BE GIVEN MORE 'COURAGE' TO KEEP YOUR LIFE GOING MAN.

no one can survive on a diet of hope, neither can i.

hmm, act big just cos i'm a bung? HA. you guys have really nothing better to do then to go round spamming others. in case your don't know, i don't give a fucking damn abt what your said. & please get a life for yourself cos i don't find this a wee bit entertaining. no one acts big cos she's a bung please. use your brains.


i'm so not gonna let this kinda stuff affect my mood. haha. FLIRT just msged me! she's the best okay! never fails to cheer me up :D I LOVE MY FLIRT X 100 TIMES. haha. (:
mer & twin! please stop pms-ing in class! :D i don't know why but michelle chua bought us lolli?! she say it's cos of easter? crazy already. haha! twin was being so retarded during assembly! she made me laugh like nobody's business lah. i don't wanna sit with her in the morning anymore. :D

didn't attend trng today. wasn't feeling well & can people just believe me for once! haha. i guess many didn't turn up as well. ugh, i hate skipping trng. make me feel so useless. rawr.

& it's not that i don't wanna make the decision fast. But can't your just give me some time to think through it? how i wish i could control too right, but i just can't. It's happening all over again. i don't want this to affect my exams! ugh. i leave it to fate then.

looking beyond this pretty face, i see a new story.

oh oh, haven't been blogging this few days. esther's nagging! haha. too many things happened. lazy to blog everything out. heh. long weekends, i love! :D i don't feel like going back to school! ): & A maths is killing all my brain cells. i don't even understand a single shit about that damn paper. tuition was only a bit of help. ugh.

friday, met geraldine for church. after that, went town to meet chess. my ai ren was my flirt for that day. :D went marina south to meet the rest after that. smashed cake into sihui's face! haha. went esplanade & saw the rest, again. haha. quite fated though. wanru they all left first.

sat, met sophia, rachelanne, jaey, andreanna, vwong in the morning to discuss some project thing. we didn't do much la. haha. gerri & chess came along later. walked ard town a while. the rest left. then gerri & chess had to go for the hollaback crew thing. jiarui came for a while too. twin was being sad! cheer up, okay! :D off to church at 4. twin only realised that there wasn't lesson when we reached church! i wanted to kill her! rawr. but i still love her :D talked for an hour or so. haha.
14th was twins day! <3>

i don't feel like doing A maths anymore! wanna drop it. ): i'm gonna rot at home & die of boredom man. everyone's out. ugh!

sunshine, get well soon. (: