Its tearing up my heart when I'm with you,
But when we are apart I feel it too.

That was then,


Three days of rest didn't feel like its enough. Worked tonight cause I felt bad taking sudden leave again. My time of the month is here & can you imagine cramps plus gastric?! I wonder how I pulled through Hawhaw.

I need that self-discipline there.

Imissyou.
Goodnight humans.

This is gonna be a major rant post. I can feel my love handles growing on me afterr all the eat sleep routines I had the past 2 days & my tummy's reaaalllyyy bloatedd & hardd. This is reaallyy worrying causee I hate to feel troubled over putting on weight cause yknww losing weight is neverr easy. I can say this is not paranoia cause its reaallyyy NOT. Shit wtf have I done to myselff. I wish I ate on time I wish I never skipped meals I wish my immune system is stronger that I wouldn't have to fall sick twice in a month?! Daaamn the putting on weight shit.

Kay whateverr. I need to run.

Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush?

Two sessions of rowing today along with the almighty sun was no joke. I seriously think the ozone layer iss worn out or something. I'm beginning to expand sideways which is ratherr worrying. This spells a need to yknw what, eat LESS.

Abandon these thoughts,
Please.

Why do I keep running from the truth,
When all I think about is you.

My temparament's reaaallyy atrocious. I hate how I get annoyed at minor issues so easily I need some management on that I need to control :/ Today was town with the same three last night (: Dtf for dinnerr. I need to spend lesser next week already, whats more I haven't been working.

& Hi Happy Pill I guess you'll be reading this. Stop playing your speedtest & calling me a cheaterbug I haven't even played okay haha. Seeee youu sooooon (: Like just this Sunday maybe? Haha.

Let me in,

Thankyou for sending me home all the way up ten storeys walked past the corridor to the extreme end (: I know I won't be wrong about this.

Now, I must think of a name for W15 hehe. I'm dropping thoughts for SC I realise I was rather rash. Rochor beancurd for supper with P Nobel & Wr after dinnerr with the ladies at market (: I kinda miss working Haha.

I neeeeed to rest my back.

I can even tie it up. Guess. What.

My appetite's really horrendous I think it made up for Sat & Sun haha. No work for me for the rest of the weeeeeek! Kay sleep early dudessss.

Just another girl, who took my breath away.

I fell so fast,
can't hold myself Back.


Happy Birthday Phin.

I saw Claudia today like after 12389172946 years Oh dearr. Missed you.

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you.
Are you holding back
Like the way I do.

I'm staring at perfection,

I'm sorry.

So happy together,

A moment of thrills I know is the best for me.

I was never wrong about you

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are.

Stranger.

Taking the transport home from work took me 1hr when I could've actually walked home & save 45min. Hawwww. Tonight's much better I finished everything within an hour & we had so much time to kill Haha. I dread training, be it running or rowing, while having flu it shortens my breath like most of the time hurr.

Rooms & more space for improvements. I want that so badly now I'm halfway gone without even trying. Where's that passion gone to Why is it I don't feel the anxiety to get it done.
Sometimes, I don't know what is it I really want.

Why.

I hate insecurities.

Corrinne May's voice is love.

I took the chance that I'm even at home for two whole days to really think back on how I was. & I'm starting to wonder why I took up this job why I choose to tire myself out just because I knew I'd be heartbroken I needed something to occupy myself why I choose this sport out of so many others & why, why did I allow you to break me.

There's nothing for me to expect except whats in there for me at work What're my plans for the next day When am I meeting up with friends I've not seen for ages How am I to manage my time. I really hate the idea of trying so hard just to be someone I'm not. Yknw many a time, you just feel like being happy, forgive & forget everything else. I did. But the minute I feel unfair, I give up trying to the point when I feel like telling them off. Just a state of confusion playing a bit of mind games & I'm through.

snap.

I don't even know my true feelings.

I've updated everything on my lj, I'm so lazyy now.
Hope I'll be well enough to train tomorrow.

Goodnight humans.

Just one reason why I hate you.

Training at Kallang this morning, Suntec for lunch then town with them. I was so drained I wanted to give work a miss. I kinda dislike my job, now that its really stressing me up ttm. I spent 15min complaining to Wr just then I swear the time of the month is coming. My right hand is trembling quite badly now & my wirst is starting to hurt Okay nothing beats what I'm feeling noww.

Goodnight humans. You suck.